Alot of things happened recently. Just started on my attachment that time and now it's like ending soon. It was a good experience at dss because it was a neighbourhood school so close to me that I will pass by the bus stop everyday when I was a student of pj. And now I was attached to the school, getting to know the teachers and students there better. I must really say the students here are so much better than my sec sch. Well, at least I feel, haven't gone to the lower end classes to see. The students are so much friendlier and polite, at least the school teach them to be D&D. haha! Though they are still from neighbourhood schools, I still feel a sense of discipline seen in the students.

Taught a class today, a class I go in everyday, even more than once on certain days. I still feel much to be improved by my mentor say it was okay. So stressed. And I was already stressed and feeling not well in the beginning of the week. Many thoughts came to my mind. Not just school alone, but other stuff more that is so distracting and uneasy.

Just came back from Genting. I must say it wasn't a wonderful one. I don't know what happen to him but I still feel that he thought too much. It could have been much more fun with the four of us getting crazy there. Perhaps we only stayed there for a day? I seriously hope the next trip, if there is, will be more fun. I won't expect much. But at least, smiles on everyone's faces!

Worrying about instep also. When is my roomie gonna confirm her courses on that side??? It seems so uncertain, my "party in the USA" and all the stuff that I anticipated too.

Still I haven't get to experience what is it like to be a full-fledged teacher? Going home and reaching home before 3pm and taking naps after that is so much of good life!!!

I just feel like sighing everyday, not because of my job but because... =(

It has been so long since I last updated. Ever since exams ended til now, I have been busy with things that I haven't really got a time for myself yet.

I went on to help my cousin at her childcare like straight after my exams? With one vesak day in between for me to rest. And this continues straight til when the childcare needs to be renovated, and soon after I was sick again. Uggh... then I went on to pay my respects to my grandmother whom have just passed away one month back in Malaysia. And when I come back, I worked again til my attachment starts. A series of meetings before it actually started, today...

Looking at my calendar, my schedule was quite packed. Each day I had a different experience. I like that! but I have to adjust to a whole new series of working life. As a student in secondary school 5 years back and now back to school as a teacher. Different experience totally. From student's point of view and teachers' point of view. I will enjoy it =) hopefully...

I'm looking forward to the genting trip with polar bears! well, though my parents are going too.. haha! I have two sets of parents looking after me, how wonderful!

Something cute I wanna share, a "joke" by my father...

Mum: Ah girl arh! 我要吃Ice cream...
Dad: 弄两杯来lo..
Mum: Eeyer 你jealous我叫ah girl 弄 ice cream arh?
Dad:.... (okay that's not the point)
I was going to iron my clothes but I hadn't switched on the iron. So I went into the kitchen and took out the icecream from the fridge.
I shouted: Daddy!你的White cup leh???
Dad: HUH? White "card" arh? 没有酱快写啦！还有3天！！！ (Obviously he was talking about the malaysia immigration card that we are supposed to fil in upon entering malaysia borders)
Mum: laughing to herself...
Me, I shouted again, walking out from the kitchen at the same time: "!@#$%^&*??????? I asked for your WHITE CUP, not WHITE CARD!!!"
Dad realised, and he went: "HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!"
Mum went HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
and I went HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA also...
Mum: "I kept quiet, see what reaction you all two have..."
... ... ... ...
Funny or not?
cute hor?

Frowns

And I'm still not settled with my air ticket yet. Gosh. No more Cathay seats already. Then I don't need to fly anymore =(

I am quite happy and satisfied with my results this semester! especially for physics! when I almost did nothing for the questions. It's a good choice for not MC-ing. Maybe grandma blesses me from the heaven? Hmmm...

All with that comes frustrations and more...

First I was sick. Second, I was needed to do some cleaning at the childcare but I couldn't. It was terribly dusty. How I wish I could have just chopped off my nose. Spent $68 today.

Third. I finally seen true colours.

It's so frustrating these days settling the air ticket, having to liase with my agent and also wanting to try to get the same flight as my roomie. Only to know that Cathay seats are running out fast. I hope things go well, I don't mind paying a little bit more. I just want my trip to be safe and secure.

Plus it's more and more frustrating too to know that cracks between two trusted friends are getting deeper. Though it doesn't concern me sometimes but I feel that I have a part to do too. I couldn't concentrate doing anything too.

But I think the most worrying thing now is my air ticket. Other things can come in later. Please, I don't want to create more trouble for the people around me...

Wow... it has been awhile ever since I finished my exams and started work. Sometimes I do really think work is making my time slower. Thinking back, it feels as if exams are like one month ago? 8 more days to results release. I think I already kan kai le...

Currently still very troubled about my instep stuff. Booking of flights, buying of insurances... luckily exams are now over.

I enjoy working now. Childcare admin is so much different from accounts admin. At least I know what I'm doing and for what I'm doing those stuff. I get to do different things rather than filing filing filing everyday. I even get to use binding machine and laminating machine, and my favourite copier machine, which I jammed up don't know how many times already. Both the new and the old...

I really feel like working on and earn some money, and to pass time. Seeing kids everyday gets me reminded of my good old days with mummy, listening to childhood songs. going to school everyday seems a happy thing to do. sing songs, do art and craft. i still remember my favourite toys were the soldiers. and how I got my counting money wrong for the final exam in kindergarten. surprisingly, I'm a math major now!

The colleagues, or rather, teachers there were nice, the nature of the job really tells people more about their personalities. I particularly was "mesmerised" by this particular teacher, 秦老师. She's from China and she's in her late twenties. But she totally don't look like! She is always smiling and so gentle. Today she asked me, "ah, 你昨天有没有看到我的苹果?” she meant her "apples" that she printed out from the computer. Then today I went to the kitchen for fun, she said to me again, "吃苹果了！” it's just so nice that my favourite fruit is also the apple! So sweet! Of course, there are other nice teachers around, like rong laoshi and teacher tara!

Hope I get my quotes fast!

Alot of things happen this month. Okay, not alot but one?

This week feels so long. I have never experienced such a long week. What was I doing the last Sunday? Upset over my grandmother's death. Missed out all the stuff happening over at Malaysia. And I was still planning to go over to mls in the midst of my exams, studying hard for the stupid stats paper. On Monday, I went for stats paper. What a rubbish paper indeed. I even thought of MC-ing my papers this semester. And I indeed, I think I went to the wrong exam hall since the paper looks so alien to me. But nevermind, it was the last paper of the year. So I didn't give a care about it. Ate a dinner at a weird timing with my math clique and then went home to sleep for so long.

The next day was Vesak day, I wanted to leave for mls but ya, my mum is coming back soon. So I went to the temple to pray, and walk around with my Aunt and Cousin. Don't know why, I was so lucky to get a job from her childcare. though the pay wasn't that surprising. Well, at least it fits my requirement and I can earn some pocket money =)

Watch thor , another movie like finally... went shopping around JP ( of all places...) with pong. Get to go back to the idle life after exams. Shopping seems such an alien and uncomfortable thing to me again.

And so, the next day I went to work. The first day seems fine, just that the first phone call received was from the big boss. and I didn't answer it properly. But anyway, it was okay since I am working under my cousin. Can eat with her, talk to her during lunch and lunch was home cooked by the aunty. The teachers there (colleagues) were all very friendly too. So I didn't have difficulty socialising around. But then this kind of job, I won't wanna work for long too =P So I only work there for a few weeks. And so, this is the life for the next two days. I get to do different jobs each day. So it's not very boring. And I can have the whole fan, table, chair, computer to myself. haha!

Saturday, I sleep in late. Went breakfast and then go off to meet the wookies seniors. Practise for our song sign which in the end turns out so cui. It was the last tuition of the semester before we all off for June holiday break. See you one month later! Then as usual, seems like almost every other weekend we have birthday celebration. The cake was nice! then we went off for our steamboat, and a talking session at TCC.

Sunday. I sleep in later than usual again. Met pong at clementi and sorry I was late cuz I couldn't find my things last minute. We went cycling with our bears, xinying, joanna, dong and deric. It was a long time since I last cycled and fell in 2008 class chalet. Had difficulty catching up too cuz maybe the gear has some problem. But I enjoyed it, it was the first time I cycled with ntu people. Back then in JC, we love to do all kinds of sports. But now in uni, I think everyone is old liao .. hahahahaha! Cycling to me is also quite tiring now. Then we went to mac to chill and play some card games. Dinner at Astons was fun and we talk cock so much about "what amount should I give for ___ wedding" with the "piss-off" rate. Seriously, I laughed til I cry.

So that's how my longest week went. Everyday seems so exciting and fulfilling to me. Maybe doing many things in one day can really slow down time. It seems like my paper was two weeks ago.

Anyway, I was so happy with our HW102A! A minus. Didn't expect it though cuz we met many problems at the start and middle. Our tutor is nice. Can't wait to see my critique too. =)

Somebody read my future today. I wasn't very pleased with the outcome.
Somebody told me today... Those that mind don matter, those that matter don't mind.
I take things and comments very seriously in my heart, which caused me to be an overly suspicious person. That puts me in no good situation some times.

Can I change my life? Will I be able to know what am I going to change? Do I have a choice? I will not submit to fate. Rather, sometimes I believed in fate too, such as love.