stressed...

i have alot to catch up
being an ogl is tiring
cuz we missed lessons
and we have to catch up our own

our new CT is our chem teacher
mrs tay
the first time we met her was outside the staff room
when she wanna talk to all the ogls and SCs

wah..
so fierce
and demanding
i wonder how i can cope with my lousy chemistry

then her lesson was so scary
that we have to reproduce everything she taught us before
and regurgitate out...

i scored real bad for the organic chem quiz she gave us
i m afraid that i may not be able to cope the 4h2s

then comes the day

when gina, janice and eileen left our cls
because they cannot cope with chemistry
and they took really a long time to think over it
maybe perhaps with advices from mrs tay
they decided to drop their 4h2s
and take the normal combi
to s27...

what a sudden decision
cuz we nv hear them talk abt this matter before

its everyone's future
up to one own individual to decide bah

then comes the stress and all that
where rumours are around
dropping 4h2s and stuff like that
making everyone afraid and stressed
well i guess this is the period to work hard
and strive for all the better
since we have already settle in this combi
just work for it and don think so much abt it le
cuz when u are stuck in making decisions
its going to irritate and divert ur attention away to working hard

i was kinda emo when my good friend told me that she is considering to drop chem
so i actually talk and talk into her
and repeated the same old thing
its ultimately her own decision
also like what mdm ong say
its quite true
they cant possily force us to drop subjs..
given her hardwork,
she will be able to do it

chem test yesterday
i got a feeling i didnt do well
pass already very happy
and im afraid that i may be forced to drop chem
i don wanna drop any of the subjs
cuz i think its no point dropping them
when u have spent a year studying them
or u can say i am trying out for a scholarship ba
wanna cut down on my father's expenses for me on education
but he told me don tire out myself
its ok..
but i just wanna give it a try

so i met my sec sch fren in the empty canteen
when everybody 'ta bao' upstairs to deco clss room
i was thinking abt the "dropping" situation in the canteen
while queueing up for my noodles
i was so engrossed in my minds
that i ordered the wrong thing i want
so i have to try to swallow down my throat

mark tan
he was my sec sch classmates for 4 years since sec 1
only him didnt go jj as a choice of jc in the 4e1 family
i just have a sudden feeling of hillgrove when he come and talk to me alone
i just find that
hey i still have a friend who cares, and still remembers me in pj
well i just find that he is different from the rest lah...
no offence when i say this...
even if just a simple salutation
it still make me happy la
cuz i know im not a good friend, good classmate, nor a good leader back then

thanks
even though sometimes we walked past each other without knowing.
even though sometimes we sit in the bus without talking.

这小小的关心就足够了

forgot to add...
he even run to look for me during the o2 leadership camp
even its just a few words of concern
abt why i suddenly came back.. im just glad..
heaving a sigh of relief that i am back in this caring place.
i think he saw me playing the blindfold fall on activity
when i have to stand on the table bah...
anyway thanks!!!

and i saw my YRC frens who just took the chem test
came and ask me how the chem test
and so i replied loudly:
if i fail my chem test i may be asked to drop my 4h2
i think mark heard it la
his classmates also turn and look at me
i told him abt this problem too
thats why its making me feel sad and emo

jia you lah...
reverse stressed..
and u'll get desserts
go grab a bite ba

ECP Clan Outing

its not exactly a clan outing lah
its just OG6 & 8
with half of og 6 (guys in majority) and half of 8 (girls in majority)

i met jasmine and we went tgt
she was kinda late
but we chatted alot along the way

met her fellow og8 mates at bedok mrt

then we sat to ate lunch at ecp burger king
then i realise that my og mates weren't here
they said they were at police station
i was like, " what happened??"
then they told me they found a wallet...
to be kind enough to return to the police station
sia..
gave me a fright

i grew to know more abt my og mates
and also fellow beta members
we went for cycling..
it was fun though

then the other ogls..
tunjiang.. yongsheng... andy and xin hui joined along..

also we saw jamie's og and eugene's og..
so cool..
all gathered at ECP





here are the photos
we had a fun time
and i realise i don even know how to catch a frisbee properly
then coined the name "handicapped frisbee"
which made pple laugh .. esp jasmine..

i still can make plpe laugh..
haha .. not bad sia
long time nv make pple laugh le

heard that they went steamboat!
so good!
but i had to go home early..
no reason
just wanna go home early
went home with jasmine
i think we bonded alot today
cuz normally i don talk to her that much
til today.

i think after this outing
its really difficult to organise another wan ba..
cuz j2s have to really mug soon....

Post Orientation 1 Mass Potluck

im so excited today!
cuz we have post o1 event
but there is a hurdle to clear today
before getting excited
which is a GP essay timed test in class.
but luckily can refer to notes
so i am able to do it

erh.. today is jay's birthday rite?
weiqi and shaun will be gng for his concert
so 羡慕
i have nv bought a tix and go for any concert in my life..

im starting ... no
already getting high this days when we have orientation
cheers songs fun dance mass dance tgt
especially enjoying them with our classmates and og mates...
ogls of cuz

at first i was really angry when the whole of my og doesnt turn up for the event just because its so sian
when there is nth to eat
mass dance fun dance .. so sian

well i mean
its the only time where everyone
tgt with other ogs and clans get tgt to bond ma
and somehow some of our og mates
i don get to see them already
cuz they wanna withdraw due to some personal reasons

then ask me pon with them to go marina eat steamboat
its very ridiculous lor..
even if no one from my og turns up i'll stay ..
cuz i have my circle of friends in potluck as well

but they scare me they return in the midst of the games
walking down the stairs
so dua pai... haha....
luckily they return
if not that will be the most paiseh and sad thing
cuz noone turns up and
they are going to leave 2 of my og mates who are not with them bored and lonely ...

so og 6 don disappoint me and scare me k?

fellow og 6 mates thats carissa, jiahui and me the cake they bought but nv eat de benny, a fun guy.. but he withdrew le... og 6 ogls... i realise i didnt took a photo with him since the start of orientation


this video no sound de
i think with sound it will be much better
cuz u can hear how loud and out of tune they sang haha..
it was fun to have u guys around to brighten up our orientation days ...

we still continued our cheer
BETA MAI YO MAI YO AI YO DIO GA GA YO
YO AH YO YO AH YO
i think this has become another senior cheer already we are constantly using it despite the fact that this is an unauthorized cheer...

before i forget, we have a new class cheer.. targetting at a person our class.. perhaps due to orientation mood and with the highest number of people being ogls in our class.

I WONDER IF YOU KNOW
_____ ______ HAS A BEE STUNG NOSE
IF YOU SEE IT
THEN YOU SQUEEZE IT
THEN YOU GET A HONEY NOSE

_____ _______ BEE STUNG NOSE X 2

quite united sia
it will be very fun if the whole class chant this cheer as well

so when we go back
star and me were singing and singing this cheer throughout our journey back

some photos taken


cindy and me

Yanting with me

theres combined og outing tmr
og 6 & 8
jasmine and weijie's og and my og
to east coast park
i wonder what and how will it be like..

It's just a rant

well
this post is just a rant
if i offended anybody
please forgive

i will post about orientation the next time
tgt with the mass potluck and the ECP outing

actually i just wanna let this issue go
and eventually erase it off my mind
but i couldnt because my father is constantly reminding me about this person

maybe my close friends will know who am i referring to

we have been close friends since the start of last year
but what happen to our friendship this year?
sometimes i feel like we are total strangers at the start of the year
sometimes we don even say hi to each other when we walked past.

and u told people that i am ur good friend
but let me ask
what is the definition of a good friend?
is it someone who can sort of babysit u?
or is it someone that u can share all ur woes and thoughts to?

maybe im just a superficial good friend

forgive me cuz i always take ur words too seriously

is it too difficult to show care and concern?
even just a classmate will just randomly say hi to me and ask me how am i?
even him will naturally care about my safety when i go home late at night all the time...
what about u ?
i cared for u
but u still say i lame
havent i heard from u after my long long trip to other countries, even when i go home late at night...?
not once but many
不是lame 就是hack care 不然就是 no reply
u know people will get worried when one don reply smses when people ask for u

its not one time
but many times when i show concern to u as a good friend
i find that its for granted
i feel that the existence of these actions is just being taken for granted

when u really need help
u come find me
and begged
but when u dont need help
i find that i m just a normal stranger to u
simple conversation like what a normal friend does it just so difficult
simple thing can u do for a friend seems like a chore to u all the time

i don wanna blog about this
but i needed to find a channel to throw all my rants and thoughts in
because my pa keeps reminding me of this person

what happen to us?
total strangers
sadded case

yes u are blur
but i don think u are naive to that extent that u dont regard my thoughts

very 辛苦 wan u know?

i am just a person that
u treat me well
of course i will treat u well
but if u treat me any old how
i wont treat u as nice
i don want to be like who i am in the past
not wanting to stand up and fight for myself
that results in me suffering all the time
i wanna stand up for myself
that is the only way i can prove myself

well one more thing that annoys me?
how can a friend doubt my ability all the time?
not once but many...

loud and clear : "u sirius wan meh?"
as if u are...
cant u see and recall how much i did to contribute to sirius tgt with frens
how much i strive to work hard for my results
yes i know my l1r5 is not as fantastic and by luck like u ?
yes i know i'm one of the lousiest in sirius
but i showed and proved it to them that i can juggle my academic, cca and sirius program well
and cant u see and recall that i went for sirius outing?
u mean sirius outing can invite crashers wan meh?
怎么来说我的成绩都比你好...
besides that point
i contributed so much to it? my commitment shows lor
not like one who doesnt wanna join anything...
fren say u are just blur
but i dont think u are blur and naive to this extent lor
17 going to 18 already leh

everytime i hear:"dd why u so lousy?!"
have u ever thought of my feelings?
although i still portray a happy-go-lucky, cranky and a "nothing happened" look in front of u
but do u know how hurt i feel?
not once but many times i repeat again

ya i am lousy in everything
not as good as others
but i have tried my best wad
what can i do?

at home i have only me and myself to compare with
and i have to help myself all the time
even when i am down and struggling emotionally
i can only confide with my mother
but thats different cuz how to say, we have generation gap
so most of the time i help myself up
and in everything i do i always try my best
if u say i am lousy
thats just the fact
but i know i am not and i wont
i shall prove my ability during the A levels (cross my fingers)

i just conclude that my existence is nothing and transparent
and u take me, a friend, for granted.
not me but even my parents cared about me and this friendship too
i guess i dont wanna think about this and i wanna let it go
please do not 把我们两个人扯在一起 anymore
i don feel comfortable about that now
i wanna do well in my studies
and maintain a good friendship with the rest of my classmates
leave pj with the fondest memories

i need a person to confide in
fren can u help me?

orientation wasnt a bore

its a new year
and a long time since i've blogged..
orientation 1 was finally over..
after days of sleepless nights..
i had lotsa fun with my og mates..
as well as my classmates

beta og 6 rocks!!!!


day one
i couldnt sleep that night..
maybe nervous???
or is it too excited or afraid about o1?
or is it a new CT...
i met asta to go to school tgt
since we have to reach at 645

the first day abit dead lah
cuz as usual
people are new to each other and the school compound....
don expect people to bond on the first day
but then things go quite smoothly
i din particularly go and ask them to interact with each other
they are automatically talking to one another during lunch which is a good thing!

TAYYA went to eat dinner
guess what ?
ii waited for the guys for an hour or plus
watching alpha do the glove identity
and our s25 guys playing hockey in the darkness

but the main point is i went dinner with 6 guys!
and i'm the only girl!

i am beat and went home taking a bus
and i realised that Shaun Chong is a very childish person
along with Eugene
and they sang kids cartoon songs...
from powerpuff girls to spongebob squarepants
bla bla bla
from the moment we left bpp kopitiam to the bus stop outside the red and blue buildings

day two:
as i said i was so beat
that i overslept
til when asta called me at 620
that was our effective time for meeting
then i was shocked awake
faster go get a quick shower
ask my mum help me make milo and fruits
then i left home at 630
reach school at 715
yanting was late too!
then i miss my og briefing

donno why my alarm din ring at 515

second day was fun with games....
and then comes the rah rah..
i cant do rah rah so i left TJ to do rah rah...

then i do admin stuff

playing the "make a shape with rope" game..
i cant remember what name is that
now let me introduce my beloved OG 6 mates
because i am their beloved ogl.. haha

from the left : Fahmi, ZiJian, Neeraj
from left: Bee Suan, Kash, Sally, Saraniah, JiaHui, Bernice, Malar, JiaYi, Carissa
From left: Benjamin, WingKi, Thaddeus, Leon
Cedric, Benny

Nelson, and Tun Jiang! playing with our infinity potion

when we are playing war games ... beta and the ogls.

on the Day 3: i wasnt late today!!

having some prize presentation...

its just token from me and TJ,

and they kept disturbing me

heres outside sanctuary.

and we are 2/3 thru orientation alr..

yey! today's finale cant wait!

this yr's finale is kinda special
Dinner and Dance
that i think pj has not tried it before..

the atmosphere is high of course!!

of cuz so suay beta has chosen ballet as our dance item
but nvm we will do it well
and we come up with this beta ballet cheer



although ballet is a difficult dance
our dance really rocks
as accompanied by the wonderful song
Apologize



and we won the most enthusiastic clan!
of course lah
with so many high people around..
haha
how can we NOT afford to get it...
BETA MAI YO ~ MAI YO ~ AI YO DIO GA GA YO
YO~AH~YO YO~AH~YO ~~~~

we cheered and cheered

danced and danced
definitely so high and enthu to the peak
we ogls are having fun too!

i think thats the kind of life i want in JC

OG 6
thanks for being there with me
i hope u all enjoyed this o1
tempted to join o2