stressed...

i have alot to catch up
being an ogl is tiring
cuz we missed lessons
and we have to catch up our own

our new CT is our chem teacher
mrs tay
the first time we met her was outside the staff room
when she wanna talk to all the ogls and SCs

wah..
so fierce
and demanding
i wonder how i can cope with my lousy chemistry

then her lesson was so scary
that we have to reproduce everything she taught us before
and regurgitate out...

i scored real bad for the organic chem quiz she gave us
i m afraid that i may not be able to cope the 4h2s

then comes the day

when gina, janice and eileen left our cls
because they cannot cope with chemistry
and they took really a long time to think over it
maybe perhaps with advices from mrs tay
they decided to drop their 4h2s
and take the normal combi
to s27...

what a sudden decision
cuz we nv hear them talk abt this matter before

its everyone's future
up to one own individual to decide bah

then comes the stress and all that
where rumours are around
dropping 4h2s and stuff like that
making everyone afraid and stressed
well i guess this is the period to work hard
and strive for all the better
since we have already settle in this combi
just work for it and don think so much abt it le
cuz when u are stuck in making decisions
its going to irritate and divert ur attention away to working hard

i was kinda emo when my good friend told me that she is considering to drop chem
so i actually talk and talk into her
and repeated the same old thing
its ultimately her own decision
also like what mdm ong say
its quite true
they cant possily force us to drop subjs..
given her hardwork,
she will be able to do it

chem test yesterday
i got a feeling i didnt do well
pass already very happy
and im afraid that i may be forced to drop chem
i don wanna drop any of the subjs
cuz i think its no point dropping them
when u have spent a year studying them
or u can say i am trying out for a scholarship ba
wanna cut down on my father's expenses for me on education
but he told me don tire out myself
its ok..
but i just wanna give it a try

so i met my sec sch fren in the empty canteen
when everybody 'ta bao' upstairs to deco clss room
i was thinking abt the "dropping" situation in the canteen
while queueing up for my noodles
i was so engrossed in my minds
that i ordered the wrong thing i want
so i have to try to swallow down my throat

mark tan
he was my sec sch classmates for 4 years since sec 1
only him didnt go jj as a choice of jc in the 4e1 family
i just have a sudden feeling of hillgrove when he come and talk to me alone
i just find that
hey i still have a friend who cares, and still remembers me in pj
well i just find that he is different from the rest lah...
no offence when i say this...
even if just a simple salutation
it still make me happy la
cuz i know im not a good friend, good classmate, nor a good leader back then

thanks
even though sometimes we walked past each other without knowing.
even though sometimes we sit in the bus without talking.

这小小的关心就足够了

forgot to add...
he even run to look for me during the o2 leadership camp
even its just a few words of concern
abt why i suddenly came back.. im just glad..
heaving a sigh of relief that i am back in this caring place.
i think he saw me playing the blindfold fall on activity
when i have to stand on the table bah...
anyway thanks!!!

and i saw my YRC frens who just took the chem test
came and ask me how the chem test
and so i replied loudly:
if i fail my chem test i may be asked to drop my 4h2
i think mark heard it la
his classmates also turn and look at me
i told him abt this problem too
thats why its making me feel sad and emo

jia you lah...
reverse stressed..
and u'll get desserts
go grab a bite ba