Scary nightmare

I had no wonder why would I dream of such things happening to people around me.
Someone 帮我解梦！

I draemt of talking to mother while she is cooking and washing dishes in the kitchen, and I was standing in the window. Suddenly, two woman (someone of my mum's age) climb out of the window and walk along the bamboo sticks that people in Singapore use to hang clothes outside of house. (Here, it doesn't make sense, how can that bamboo stick withstand the weight of two women? and the bamboo is so thin, how would people ever balance from it, on a high 10-storey building) But, oh well, a dream is just a dream. Then the first lady was trying to stop the second lady from suicide. But still, the second lady still 想不开 and just jump down. I keep shouting and shouting and shouting. And I cried and cried, ran out of the house.

I was in the void deck crying and crying over her death, though it's some stranger to me. But I still feel pity over a loss of life. I saw the lady who tried to stop her, and the lady told me, she was deaf and couldn't take it anymore when she quarrelled or in conflict with her children or something like that. I can't remember what was the reason that caused her suicide. Hai, oh well...

My dream is scary right. When I woke up, I felt like, something negative is going to happen. I hope not on me.

During my secondary school days, I admit I had thoughts of it* sometimes when I stood near the window. I was very unhappy in my secondary school. The feeling of being stuck in that kind of environment and had no one to share my worries for, really s*cks. Until when I finally left the school, I don't know why and what makes me feel depressed again. Perhaps culture shock when I enter a brand new environment, people are so nice again. I began to feel happier but I don't know why beneath me I sill want to go back to that kind of used-to-being-like-this lifestyle. That caused me a period of feeling depressed when I was admitted to this particular JC. Finally, I have gone to realise that, I should put things in the past and go for my happiness.

That was only one time in secondary school when I feel so out of place in class, and began to have such thoughts. After that, I became happier as time goes by. I still do feel a sense of fear standing at that window. But ya, all is gone. Today I dreamt of this, I really feel the fear in me, though this doesn't not happen to me, but it happen to someone else instead. Well, I think I should feel fear right... I actually fear of death because I still have so many things not accomplished yet. Though this dream does not really have negative impact on me, but up to now, I still feel afraid of negative premonitions.

I told my mum and mum ask me to serve prayers jossticks at various deities to ward off evil. At least it makes me abit more comfortable and relieved? Hmmm...

Moral of the story is: Wake up as soon as your eyes open. Don't go back t sleep again! and dream of this kind of thing... haiii...