I still feel guilty and unfilial.
Mum wake up to heat up the food for me to take for lunch. But I mentioned that the rice is too much. Not only did I not left some behind for her, I filled up the whole container and ate it all up, filling so full after that.
Hai, I should have left abit for her...
Conscience guilt stricken.
Friday, March 30, 2012
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
A good stupid attempt
I had stomach runs today so I left my house late for school.
By this time, the train has already been very crowded with working adults. I took the train towards JE, stopping at platform A instead. I was in the middle of nowhere of the platform. With so many people gushing in and out of the train, makes it difficult for me to head towards the two staircase beside. So I decided to give it a try and walk through the train, hopefully, to get to the platform across it. Yes, a very good attempt to walk with sooo many people. In the end, I got stuck in the train towards the City and couldn't get through the other exit. And then the train brought me towards Clementi and I have to go back one stop again.. HAHAHAHAHA!!!
And that costs me 10 minutes.
Okay la, despite leaving the house late, and a small hiccup in the train, I was just late for 10 minutes. Compared to last time when I was still taking buses to school, I could have reached at 9am instead. Despite so many things happening to SMRT, I think it is still a faster way to get to places than buses, at least for me, because long bus waits and traffic jams are often the cause of my inpunctuality.
By this time, the train has already been very crowded with working adults. I took the train towards JE, stopping at platform A instead. I was in the middle of nowhere of the platform. With so many people gushing in and out of the train, makes it difficult for me to head towards the two staircase beside. So I decided to give it a try and walk through the train, hopefully, to get to the platform across it. Yes, a very good attempt to walk with sooo many people. In the end, I got stuck in the train towards the City and couldn't get through the other exit. And then the train brought me towards Clementi and I have to go back one stop again.. HAHAHAHAHA!!!
And that costs me 10 minutes.
Okay la, despite leaving the house late, and a small hiccup in the train, I was just late for 10 minutes. Compared to last time when I was still taking buses to school, I could have reached at 9am instead. Despite so many things happening to SMRT, I think it is still a faster way to get to places than buses, at least for me, because long bus waits and traffic jams are often the cause of my inpunctuality.
Friday, March 23, 2012
Oops. Accidentally laughed during PGM lecture today after the class.
It was unexpected that he lunched with us today and told us more about his family. I guess that would be first and the last time I sat with a professor, this close to talk. He doesn't know me after making myself embarrassed today. Cuz I am his "new" student.
Something struck me today. The kind of motivation for me to do what I really should and have been wanting to do since I was in JC. Today someone did mention about this and shared his experiences. Makes me feel that I really should start working on it. I always love travelling, and what I would really hoped to achieve is, I could use my own hands and feet to help others while on travelling, and make a difference to all parts of the world. 多了解人生，看看世界。 It is the experience that counts. I really regretted not signing up for COR last year when I have the time, although COR is not something to do with OCIP, but it is also an experience to interact with the Deaf since I didn't really meet any along the way. Okay, I have already set up my mind to join some overseas trip next year.
I used to fear to step out of my comfort zone. Just like how afraid at first when I flew off for Canada. Thank goodness there are people around so I won't feel alone. I feel more independent after someone lead me to step out of the comfort zone. And now, I am facing the same kinf of problem. To do what I really want to do but afraid to step out of the comfort zone to meet new people. Well, what's going on with me?
As what I have told js this afternoon, I entered uni with 3 aims: 1) secure a scholarship 2) to go on exchange 3) to go on an OCIP. The first two have already been fulfilled. Now left my last one, and I only have my last year to go!
Sometimes I really admire him for his passion on the things he set to do, though I only started to know him that recently. Not too long ago. Which gives me a wake up call, what I should really do, even before I graduate. 我总觉得我喜欢做的事，都是一半一半的，没有把它做的太好，也没有把它做的太差，就，马马虎虎。。。 This kind of bad habit, I should really kick off, and start to live my own life from now onwards. Which reminds me of what mum asked me the other day, about learning driving. Well, this really never come across my mind at all. Or at least, learning driving is what people at my age would have already done it.
I wonder how my teaching stint be like. Will I have the chance to do what I like? Will I get to travel around the world doing meaningful stuff with the students? Will I experience different things? Will I meet good people? Will I face alot of stress in controlling the students?
Played badminton today after school and chitchatting during lunch. It has been a long time since I last touched badminton, wanted to in Canada but was to busy. Sometimes got reminded of the good old days in JC. I thought to myself as I was playing pingpong with yt today, if I didn't meet this group of friends during JC. I wouldn't have reach this kind of sportyness til now. I wouldn't have organised badminton sessions for my class, wouldn't have found what I at least do-not-hate kind of exercise. Well, yes Karen, I still suck at running haha! But, at least I started to swim after living a life in Canada. I miss the "I still can't recall the name of the gym session with this cool and hot and pretty instructor" ohhhh!!!!! yes Sculpt and Sweat. Free every Sunday. Hai, if only NTU has a well established gym like this.
Went out with dong this evening and he shared something really funny out of all things to me. When a couple gets together, it is like in primary school, taking PSLE, sweet and easy. When a couple gets married, it is like university education, complicated and restricted. Ok lor, speaking to someone who hasn't gone through any relationship, is like talking to a toddler like me then. :P
Had many thoughts about relationship these days. I hope really one day I would sort them oall out. Will share it once I'm free. Time to study for now. At least concentrate! I guessed I have had the motion to do so for the time being. Off all distractions.
It was unexpected that he lunched with us today and told us more about his family. I guess that would be first and the last time I sat with a professor, this close to talk. He doesn't know me after making myself embarrassed today. Cuz I am his "new" student.
Something struck me today. The kind of motivation for me to do what I really should and have been wanting to do since I was in JC. Today someone did mention about this and shared his experiences. Makes me feel that I really should start working on it. I always love travelling, and what I would really hoped to achieve is, I could use my own hands and feet to help others while on travelling, and make a difference to all parts of the world. 多了解人生，看看世界。 It is the experience that counts. I really regretted not signing up for COR last year when I have the time, although COR is not something to do with OCIP, but it is also an experience to interact with the Deaf since I didn't really meet any along the way. Okay, I have already set up my mind to join some overseas trip next year.
I used to fear to step out of my comfort zone. Just like how afraid at first when I flew off for Canada. Thank goodness there are people around so I won't feel alone. I feel more independent after someone lead me to step out of the comfort zone. And now, I am facing the same kinf of problem. To do what I really want to do but afraid to step out of the comfort zone to meet new people. Well, what's going on with me?
As what I have told js this afternoon, I entered uni with 3 aims: 1) secure a scholarship 2) to go on exchange 3) to go on an OCIP. The first two have already been fulfilled. Now left my last one, and I only have my last year to go!
Sometimes I really admire him for his passion on the things he set to do, though I only started to know him that recently. Not too long ago. Which gives me a wake up call, what I should really do, even before I graduate. 我总觉得我喜欢做的事，都是一半一半的，没有把它做的太好，也没有把它做的太差，就，马马虎虎。。。 This kind of bad habit, I should really kick off, and start to live my own life from now onwards. Which reminds me of what mum asked me the other day, about learning driving. Well, this really never come across my mind at all. Or at least, learning driving is what people at my age would have already done it.
I wonder how my teaching stint be like. Will I have the chance to do what I like? Will I get to travel around the world doing meaningful stuff with the students? Will I experience different things? Will I meet good people? Will I face alot of stress in controlling the students?
Played badminton today after school and chitchatting during lunch. It has been a long time since I last touched badminton, wanted to in Canada but was to busy. Sometimes got reminded of the good old days in JC. I thought to myself as I was playing pingpong with yt today, if I didn't meet this group of friends during JC. I wouldn't have reach this kind of sportyness til now. I wouldn't have organised badminton sessions for my class, wouldn't have found what I at least do-not-hate kind of exercise. Well, yes Karen, I still suck at running haha! But, at least I started to swim after living a life in Canada. I miss the "I still can't recall the name of the gym session with this cool and hot and pretty instructor" ohhhh!!!!! yes Sculpt and Sweat. Free every Sunday. Hai, if only NTU has a well established gym like this.
Went out with dong this evening and he shared something really funny out of all things to me. When a couple gets together, it is like in primary school, taking PSLE, sweet and easy. When a couple gets married, it is like university education, complicated and restricted. Ok lor, speaking to someone who hasn't gone through any relationship, is like talking to a toddler like me then. :P
Had many thoughts about relationship these days. I hope really one day I would sort them oall out. Will share it once I'm free. Time to study for now. At least concentrate! I guessed I have had the motion to do so for the time being. Off all distractions.
Friday, March 16, 2012
就算人类百态有多么丑陋，我相信有时候，人间还是美妙温馨的。
Talking about humanity and life, I always have a very pessimistic feeling about it. I always feel that there are more ugly acts than kind acts in this world. Why do crims happened so often? Knowing the heavy consequences but people still repeatedly do it. And worse still, influence each generation of youngsters. And the ball continues to roll to even younger and younger kids. More and more of them are constantly polluted with curiosity, urges, temptations. How many of them do they really understand good moral values, character development, their responsibilities? Summing all, how to really 做人？ 他们还是无法了解做人的道理。 反而，越来越多会因为好奇，爱玩，真的去“做人”。Was chatting with some friends about this, although funny, but it's really true wad. Friends talking about shotgun marriages, such cases constantly appear on their fb newsfeed.
Is this just occuring in Singapore? or it also happen in other parts of the world as well?
Read an article today about an old disabled man taking care of his illed wife, helping to cook, clean up, take care of her all by himself in the wheelchair. I was kinda touched by this real life story and so it explained my status. There are still virtues of society in the society. People, no matter how bad they are, will still think for their loved ones at least. At least! I hoped.
I was chatting with a friend about relationships. And found out both of us think quite alike when it comes to relationships. Fearing that you will dislike certain traits about him/her after getting together. But at the same time, fearing that you will just miss this person at that stage of time. Friends around me always say, faster go get a boyfriend before you graduate! If not very difficult liao! But this type of thing, not say I want means want wan ma right? Right time, right person is very important. I may say I am now ready for a relationship, but if there is no flowers for me to pick. How can I start to admire that flower leh? So funny you know wookies? 22 is not a young age anymore I feel. HAHA! though there are still the other extreme who say I am still young. Well, I hope I still look young, say 5 years down the road la har. Good luck to me then!
But I still think, having common interests is very important to me. And also personality. If not, it is very difficult to strike common topics. I am actually a very talkative person. But I will only share my thoughts and feelings to people whom I think can understand and appreciate, that is, with a suitable personality. Just like my thoughts towards teaching, I will only share it to people who are passionate enough. And not make the whole education cycle go haywire. I think, say out of 10 people I meet, 8 are rotten apples. Which is quite sad though. I recently talked to another secondary school friend about not being able to secure an interview opportunity again. I quite agree with what he says. He is a very passionate and committed teacher. Wanting to do well and serving his students with all his might. Ultimately, thats how cruel reality can be. They don't look at how you teach to get the scholarship, but your results and CCA to start off with. But ya, it is an undergraduate scholarship to sponsor your studies. grey area. But I believe, if you are passionate enough, you don't need the government to take note of you. Others around will notice you and what's more, your students will benefit from you and that is the most important thing to do being a teacher. Who cares about what rank you are, who cares about how much you earn, who cares about how well you study. I believe, certain principles still hold. But, how long can one hold their principles stll remains unknown. Here, Christopher Lee in his recent show, The Oath, really inspires me alot. I hope I can meet such people like that, or, have I already did? Hmm...
Talking about humanity and life, I always have a very pessimistic feeling about it. I always feel that there are more ugly acts than kind acts in this world. Why do crims happened so often? Knowing the heavy consequences but people still repeatedly do it. And worse still, influence each generation of youngsters. And the ball continues to roll to even younger and younger kids. More and more of them are constantly polluted with curiosity, urges, temptations. How many of them do they really understand good moral values, character development, their responsibilities? Summing all, how to really 做人？ 他们还是无法了解做人的道理。 反而，越来越多会因为好奇，爱玩，真的去“做人”。Was chatting with some friends about this, although funny, but it's really true wad. Friends talking about shotgun marriages, such cases constantly appear on their fb newsfeed.
Is this just occuring in Singapore? or it also happen in other parts of the world as well?
Read an article today about an old disabled man taking care of his illed wife, helping to cook, clean up, take care of her all by himself in the wheelchair. I was kinda touched by this real life story and so it explained my status. There are still virtues of society in the society. People, no matter how bad they are, will still think for their loved ones at least. At least! I hoped.
I was chatting with a friend about relationships. And found out both of us think quite alike when it comes to relationships. Fearing that you will dislike certain traits about him/her after getting together. But at the same time, fearing that you will just miss this person at that stage of time. Friends around me always say, faster go get a boyfriend before you graduate! If not very difficult liao! But this type of thing, not say I want means want wan ma right? Right time, right person is very important. I may say I am now ready for a relationship, but if there is no flowers for me to pick. How can I start to admire that flower leh? So funny you know wookies? 22 is not a young age anymore I feel. HAHA! though there are still the other extreme who say I am still young. Well, I hope I still look young, say 5 years down the road la har. Good luck to me then!
But I still think, having common interests is very important to me. And also personality. If not, it is very difficult to strike common topics. I am actually a very talkative person. But I will only share my thoughts and feelings to people whom I think can understand and appreciate, that is, with a suitable personality. Just like my thoughts towards teaching, I will only share it to people who are passionate enough. And not make the whole education cycle go haywire. I think, say out of 10 people I meet, 8 are rotten apples. Which is quite sad though. I recently talked to another secondary school friend about not being able to secure an interview opportunity again. I quite agree with what he says. He is a very passionate and committed teacher. Wanting to do well and serving his students with all his might. Ultimately, thats how cruel reality can be. They don't look at how you teach to get the scholarship, but your results and CCA to start off with. But ya, it is an undergraduate scholarship to sponsor your studies. grey area. But I believe, if you are passionate enough, you don't need the government to take note of you. Others around will notice you and what's more, your students will benefit from you and that is the most important thing to do being a teacher. Who cares about what rank you are, who cares about how much you earn, who cares about how well you study. I believe, certain principles still hold. But, how long can one hold their principles stll remains unknown. Here, Christopher Lee in his recent show, The Oath, really inspires me alot. I hope I can meet such people like that, or, have I already did? Hmm...
Monday, March 12, 2012
Well, I was still complaining to some of my friends that I have no aims for now. But at least this week, I have some aims to go for.
I really have been a 宅女 this time, finish another tph drama this weekend again. Spend the whole day writing out two chapters of my korean. Super waste of time. But, I also dont want to peak up in my studies yet. Okay, I need to cut down on being distracted from drama.
Received so many project and assignment tasks today. Korean essay, korean quiz coming up. Time Series project, with people forming groups so fast makes me eager to settle down to a group. Psychology project, with people I am clueless of, definitely need to make new friends. Thank goodness I have one acquaintance whom I always sit with during my tutorial lessons. But we only had 3 tutorials so far, and it is week 9 already. I hope I can also find a group fast.
At least something to aim for and finish these assignments. Next up, will be exams. Wah so fast. Don't wanna think about it. Finally I had some time to go out and eat with friends. Otherwise I will really stay a couch potato all the time. And also, the first campus concert ever since I came back from Canada this thursday!
I really have been a 宅女 this time, finish another tph drama this weekend again. Spend the whole day writing out two chapters of my korean. Super waste of time. But, I also dont want to peak up in my studies yet. Okay, I need to cut down on being distracted from drama.
Received so many project and assignment tasks today. Korean essay, korean quiz coming up. Time Series project, with people forming groups so fast makes me eager to settle down to a group. Psychology project, with people I am clueless of, definitely need to make new friends. Thank goodness I have one acquaintance whom I always sit with during my tutorial lessons. But we only had 3 tutorials so far, and it is week 9 already. I hope I can also find a group fast.
At least something to aim for and finish these assignments. Next up, will be exams. Wah so fast. Don't wanna think about it. Finally I had some time to go out and eat with friends. Otherwise I will really stay a couch potato all the time. And also, the first campus concert ever since I came back from Canada this thursday!
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
A little busy week to start off with.
Went for Ngee Ann Interivew on Monday after my lessons. I just hope to get it over. But, I think I was rejected by them. Maybe I should say I hinted a little bit to give up the position to somebody else since I have already got a back plan. But seeing somebody with the initial intention of rejecting the interview chance, and then ultimately managed to get the intern, makes me feel alittle bit disappointed. Not because I didnt get the job offer, is because, during the interview I wasn't firm enough to be the best one. Well, that is the very persistent side of me. Well, anyway, glad that things turn out this way. If I were to get the offer, I would feel sorry for RP to reject their offer after my so much hard work of securing that placement. Actually not hard work la, it was a casual interview, and I feel abit like, I really need the intern, can you give me one? that kind of thing. And so they offered me a place. My stand still remains: I will go with any decision made, let nature take its course. I just feel, I have done my best at the interview.
What makes me feel disappointed is, it was the first interview that I flopped. Somebody out there is better than me. Now I hope CAO and SPMS approve my proposal.
I finished two midterms in two day. Yesterday's psychology was okay. Today's midterm was really a killer. Looks like, I am not very prepared for tough challenges in SPMS. I don't know why, I feel so exhausted after hurdle I crossed every day.
Living a 宅女 life every day. Never go out at all since recess week for relax. But never mind, I have tph dramas to accompany me =)
Went for Ngee Ann Interivew on Monday after my lessons. I just hope to get it over. But, I think I was rejected by them. Maybe I should say I hinted a little bit to give up the position to somebody else since I have already got a back plan. But seeing somebody with the initial intention of rejecting the interview chance, and then ultimately managed to get the intern, makes me feel alittle bit disappointed. Not because I didnt get the job offer, is because, during the interview I wasn't firm enough to be the best one. Well, that is the very persistent side of me. Well, anyway, glad that things turn out this way. If I were to get the offer, I would feel sorry for RP to reject their offer after my so much hard work of securing that placement. Actually not hard work la, it was a casual interview, and I feel abit like, I really need the intern, can you give me one? that kind of thing. And so they offered me a place. My stand still remains: I will go with any decision made, let nature take its course. I just feel, I have done my best at the interview.
What makes me feel disappointed is, it was the first interview that I flopped. Somebody out there is better than me. Now I hope CAO and SPMS approve my proposal.
I finished two midterms in two day. Yesterday's psychology was okay. Today's midterm was really a killer. Looks like, I am not very prepared for tough challenges in SPMS. I don't know why, I feel so exhausted after hurdle I crossed every day.
Living a 宅女 life every day. Never go out at all since recess week for relax. But never mind, I have tph dramas to accompany me =)
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Found my favourite pasttime to take me off boredom for this sem. I am going to watch every show Tay Ping Hui acted in it! Which is alot!!! HAHAHA...
Recess week is ending soon. I feel that I didn't do much, but watching alot of shows. I completed two dramas in a week. One drama in 3 days on average. Shiok... okay, back to studies.
Dramas are there for me to take me off my complicated mind. Worrying about IA makes me very frustrated. So I have found my new pasttime! And thank goodness, my IA problem is sort of half settled.
Recess week is ending soon. I feel that I didn't do much, but watching alot of shows. I completed two dramas in a week. One drama in 3 days on average. Shiok... okay, back to studies.
Dramas are there for me to take me off my complicated mind. Worrying about IA makes me very frustrated. So I have found my new pasttime! And thank goodness, my IA problem is sort of half settled.
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