Letter 1 - Your Best Friend

Dear Best Friend,

Like I always say, I don't have a long lasting best friend. As for now, I hope you know who you are. I always thought that you don't really understand me well as compared to XXX. But recently I discover that we actually share alot of things about life along the way, which I think is quite alot as compared to any other friend. Prompting you on msn everyday has already been a habit, even just to call you. We also exchange calls quite a number of times which I haven't been doing ever since back then in secondary school. It is definitely a nice feeling to have when someone calls you, sms you, pat you on the back, talk to you at random to find out what you are doing sometimes? Though it may just be asking something random, but it's definitely very sweet. Also, you will also take care of me, lead me no matter how tired you are and don't reject my favours I ask for. Perhaps there are things that I haven't really open up and finish sharing, but thank you for the understanding of the blurness I have. Though sometimes we have differing opinions, I should say, most of the times, but it is glad that we came to an understanding position.

It's interesting to recall how I first known you, the weird weird name everyone is talking about but a super friendly guy, well-known for your joker acts. Everyone may take you for an entertainment figure infront, always making the day very bright. I love seeing the way you laugh, really very funny. Well anyway, it was after the incident that I got more close to you even when I thought that time, I find it a little difficult to step out of the box to know you and talk to you because the problem of me being "immature" has been constantly reminded and repeated to me. And also the weird and irritating questions that comes out of your mouth constantly wherever I go in school. But more and more I find that, it takes time to understand each other and also, I haven't been sharing my views too. That was when my impression of you changed from an entertainer to someone who is really really serious too. That was a miracle how different we are has closely brought us together in one way or another. Or perhaps, it takes two hands to clap.

I have always told people around me that, I hope my boyfriend will be my best friend. But I see more positive traits in you. HAHA! But it is impossible because of our vast character differences and the environment that grew us up in! Anyway, I still have alot that can never be expressed in words so short to you. I also can never imagine how am I a light to you, especially when I am in my super blur and nonchalant attitude appearance in front of you all the time. Okay I admit that I am nonchalant and appear to be cold, but that is because I think you have the capability to judge that issue for yourself and decide what you should do. I have the trust in you to accomplish that and there is little I can do to make the world chnage. On the other hand, to make me less confused and frustrated with the way things are in life, I chose to accept and just be nonchalant, as carefree as I am.

I hope things are turning well at your side. You have to be more demanding and get what you want with priority. You are a fine person, I don't see the need for you to change the way you are. It's just the way you are that is why you have many friends staying by you. Most importantly, you cannot mess your own life and daily lifestyles up. Sometimes I really wish I have a brother like you. Don't worry too much about life. Things will get better. Jia You!

Loves,
Jia Xin

As I write this letter, I teared. It gets more and more obvious who really cares and really treats me better. But just to only realise it now.