needs to be more careful!

I don't know what is super wrong with me today. Today seems a bad day to start of with. First, I had repeated flashbacks of unpleasant scenes lingering in my mind which is unhealthy. Sometimes, I was thinking if I had really some kind of weird imaginative disorder or not. I am just... I don't know what to say. Think too much? But well, at least work buries me.

Precisely when work buries me, makes me more stressed than ever like today, just meeting the directors at a meeting which don't require me to do or say anything can stress me so much. And then rushing out some materials before I knock off today, make my chest feels tensed up, lessen my energy.

I don't wth was wrong with me, I saw several small boys wearing my sec school uniform running across the traffic light, well, it's green light, so running across the road don't seem any problem, I thought. As when that traffic turns red, I reached the point, it was a cross junction, the other traffic light heading to another direction hasn't even turned green. I DON'T KNOW WHY I CROSS THAT TRAFFIC. IT WAS A RED LIGHT! Suddenly,...

A company bus was speeding towards me and I thought, why is the bus going so fast when it's green light, and I held my head up, IT'S A RED LIGHT! OMG, I quickly dashed to the platform at the middle of the road, and faster cross over to another side. My gosh, it was so dangerous, and I thought it was supposed to turn green anytime soon. Oh well, I don't know what am I so stressed up about. I am always afraid when crossing roads, and always made sure that cars stopped, or when there is hardly any vehicle, then I will cross the road. I guess I am lucky this time to escape this tragedy. I still remember two years back when I was heading to my tuitee's house, I cross a junction which cannot be crossed by passengers and many many cars were horning me. Oh my gosh, I still have that bad impression in my mind and now, another flashback will be stuck in my mind again. Never got to be released. And I will just stay with these bad memories in me.

That kind of scared, afraidness but, why does it still happens to me? My mum must be pretty worried about me when I cross roads, two times, which occurs at traffic lights which are supposed to help people cross roads safely.

I seriously wonder, why am I so not cautious and mind drifting away all the time. A lesson learnt, to be more careful and alert all the time whenever doing something.

Thinking about today, just make me more afraid in life. 不要想太多！

And because of this bad flashback, I am constantly reminded of it after this incident. Talking about accidents, on the news radio, on the drama preview clip, on the straits time twitter, car horns on and off around my estate.

Don't you guys agree so? That you encounter something annoying that day which lingers in your mind, related incidents or scene will remind you as and when you interact with the environment, on the newspaper, during conversation with your family, on the TV. Well, I guess not to take this so seriously. Otherwise, it is very difficult for me to move on in life. Another thing, I am being too serious and easily annoyed by myself- person. My mother always remind me, in life, we always always have to learn to let things go, you will be lighter, and happier to deal with more challenges in the future. I always believe what she said, and I will also always try to make sure I keep up to that, though sometimes I am slow to realise things. =)

Jia you for results release! And thanks to NTU tweets for the CONSTANT reminder that results will be out midnight, check your results while dancing in the club whatsoever. UGH! I just plan to have a good night sleep tonight and forget all my troubles away. Hopefully, tomorrow is a happy day for me!