monday is drawing near!

at first i thought i have alot alot alot of time to study for 111. cuz there are so many things to catch up on. but the more time i have. the more i procrastinate. the more i keep thinking the more and more time i have. in the end. i still didnt really utilize the time i have. and it gets frustrating when i have no longer confident in that, when i actually used to. perhaps of my rather lousy quiz results. how many things actually get into my head? well looking at the past yr papers did boost a little of my confidence. but who knows prof may set something different from what we have usually seen in our mid terms and quizzes. like some of the challenging tutorial questions. and i even did some textbook questions which are not easy it seems. again. how many things really going into my head. ask me anything now and i have to refer. well. after ranting so much. my parents are away for a kukup trip for this weekend. so im alone at home, thus i went to sch to study with zhiyings. but ended up studying with zhiying guy. haha. surprisingly we met yanting at can A. it's been donno how many days since i last caught up with her ( not to say that time at interchange when she is leaving for home and i am heading for school in the evening!) haha... chatted alot abt forensic stuff which i cant understand. i cant do this type of logical thinking cuz i am always illogical ( is there such a word) and based on my feelings. but u can say im a math major. (so what? peeps studying same course as me. do u think uni math is logical?, no it isn't! hahaha.... no offence.) anyway. luckily zy taught me lattice. otherwise i would be banging hard on my head and cry in front of nobody. up to now. nothing still get into my head after copying and doing sums for n times. i hope tmr will be a productive day for me to get everything into my head. hope that paper would be manageable for me. why arh? people say quiz 2 is easier than mid term. but i thought so otherwise. enough abt ranting.

thanks so much for accompanying me today!

take care everyone. 2 more papers (well, at least for me =)) hee hee. im being so mean...)

if u all are free. take a look at the new mv by evan yo : xiao guai guai. i just like the song. and after watching the mv. i fell in love with it. it is simple and sweet. anyway. nth surprising abt the nv at all. haha.

1/3 remaining!

or rather 2 out of 6 more papers to go! today's calculus paper was... errr... the questions were like ah huh ah huh ah huh (quoted from my tourism lecturer. haha).. they are all similar ... we don even have to learn the later half of the course and we can just do well in it lor. im not confident with the paper. but nvm. i have lots of 111 111 111 to catch up on. as they are rather important and similar questions that would surely come out for exams. and also 801 to finish. hope i can score well this time.

slept a little just now. hope i am in a greater mood and mind to start studying. =)

u should be thinking abt exams now and not other things!
perhaps due to the monthly visit of great aunt. my mind is preoccupied with other stuff. irrelevant stuff which i shouldnt be thinking off. it just nv clear away. how should i control my mind? the window just remind me of my history. and only time can heal this scar. why are students and teenagers now live in a strawberry world? i am gonna prove this wrong. and i came out with a quote. the world will nv stop turning because of ur inexistence, but it may make a difference due to ur existence in life. and make life more meaningful and colourful! live it on with that spirit! right.. im much happier now. when great aunt has just went back to her place.. haha.
it drives me crazy on saturday when i'm badly in pain. lying on my sofa taking medicine. well. both times it happens at home. but what if one day im outside and i suddenly cry out in pain? should i go see a doctor? maybe that is the reason why i am feeling "anxiety" these days... thinking of stuff that i SHOULDN'T NEVER EVER be thinking of...

promise myself that it wont happen again?
i must be happy and treasure everything around me...

well... 3 stones off my burdened shoulder. 3 more math to go! add oil everyone!
thats my first time taking uni exam. i thinking its quite fun. haha.
how to put my 100% concentration in everything i do?

steamboat!

there's nobody at home. no point staying at home for a long time when there is nobody around to entertain me. i have been used to that kind of loneliness feeling when nobody is at home. when nobody is around u so i can do whatever i want. but for now, i just dislike that kind of feeling. well, i need people to be around with me. i thot i can be independent. yes but, lonely =(



let's come back to the topic, since nobody is at home. i got up and did some chores before going to school. i studied on the bus. i sat at the upper deck. behind a guy, he looks geekish. he took out his notebook and a ball point pen. and started drawing comic characters. that's so genius! i saw him flipping his 'little sketch book' . it contains many of his drawings and little notes. that's very cool and artistic. on the other hand. beside my seat was this guy and girl discussing abt their own opinions on some issues in the newpaper. i find it quite irritating and so noisy, blabbering abt stuffs like as if they want people in the whole bus to know how they feel and what they think.

maybe because of that and the jerky bus journey, i feel quite nauseous and intially i wanted to eat big bfast. but since i felt a little 'want to vomit' , i gave up that idea and ate at can A instead. after that bowl of tomyam ee mee. i felt so much comfortable.



i studied abt 3 hours plus... before the test. then zy gal joined me, karen, zy boy followed by munjee. there are alot of things which are alien to me. then the test, seems like every question is from the extra questions and tutorial he gave. but, i don really feel confident. well, i said i wanna do well so not to regret my choice of choosing to stay here when my parents are back there enjoying time in malaysia.



nvm. next is shopping time! cuz mj wants to shop for his fren's 21st bday present. we went around looking for pressies and gave him comments... but he ah, just don wan to listen. hai...
but at last he got what he wanted.. and thus we went to bugis street to shop for stuff.. i bought a watch.. only...

then karen suggested to go for steamboat as we longed to have one... since last time class gathering which i didnt go. and we were craving for it. haha.... chatted and talked alot during the steamboat til we ate til burnt. haha... the whole soup is inedible anymore. but anyway we have finished what we want to eat.

i had a nice day.. except for the quiz. haha. long long time since i last went out with friends =)

relaxed a little

as this week is e learning week. didnt get to go out much . at least out of home to school or sth like that. didnt have chance to breathe the outside air. hai... but yesterday was a wonderful day i had with my mum. i went to si ma lu guan yin temple to pray cuz yesterday was guan yin dan. i thought i wasnt going due to the heavy heavy downpour. i pon econs lecture yst. but ya , u know i am a very guai1 girl. i went for it already on monday after my lab lesson. i went around walking with my dear mum. pray at the temple . wah so many people. esp the aunties and uncles. it's so crowded. so we faster pray and faster come out. then we went ahead to the hawker centre beside bugis mrt for the famous satay mee hoon and the tasty yuan yang ( peanut and sesame paste). you guys should go and try it! esp on a hot day. eating those stuff will sweat u out. hahaha. that settles my dinner. so mum bought some snacks stuff and we went back by mrt. she goes to lot one and i go to school. that 179 is so long til i board the 3rd 199 that comes along. wanna meet karen but i didnt have time. tourism lecture was rather fine. listen and listen. and so after that i met a rsphi senior who will teach me the song signing for christmas. a nice song but a very fast one. i manage to catch some parts. and he said i was very stable for a first timer. what a rubbish. haha.. i couldnt catch most of the words tgt with the song. but nvm. i will practise. and so paiseh for him to wait for me all the way til 830. after that i waited for 179 which took v v long to come again. what happen???

but nvm. i had a wonderful day with my mum today.

what abt today? stay at home and study. face that 111 111 111 again. hai. going to play some games. kinda addicted to the free trial one hour hidden objects games, from big fish. after that back to studying again. hai... but looking forward tmr shopping with my clique =)

e learning week!

well actually it's kind of holiday for me this week but i have to study and take the quiz which happens this saturday! as a result, i couldnt go back to malaysia. hai... studying 111 is a very bored thing to do. but what to do? study and study and study. yey. tmr i can go out with mum for a walk before i come to sch for the tourim lecture and song signing. which will end rather late =(

looking forward to this saturday! not the quiz but shopping spree with my clique! finally can go out and walk walk le. back to studying.

this is so scary!

hai... those people who said uni life is slacker and easier. i dont fully agree. depends on what goals u have in mind. if u want to enter uni and just pass all the courses. well, then that is easy. if u want to pursue honours like me. that is difficult cuz there is always people who is always better than u. in chinese, yi shan hai you yi shan gao. one mountain will always be taller than the other, unless u r mount everest. that will be ... u know who i am talking AbouT!

just came back from my tourism lecture. our project grades are out. but unfortunately, the lecturer had just marked 2/3 and left with 1/3 undone. too bad, we fall under the 1/3 category. so me and beatrix were so anxious abt our results but to no avail. we have to wait til tmr. but as we walked past the table. we saw a couple of A+ scripts. this is so scary. imagine getting a grade A and u are unhappy with it cuz people around u all got A+!!! it's like As are dropping down from the sky so easily? well, even the lecturer also say, what a pity and it is so frustrating to see people getting a high grade when they SU the course away. i am so dumb to SU it so soon when actually i could wait and see my grade to be up. but anyway. good or no good. even though i got A+ . i am so going to SU it cuz the finals is 70% which i don think i can score well. plus, i don want to affect my GPA too. but wait a minute, i don think i can score well in my 110 either! later the marker also very lenient give me high marks for tourism i can go jump down le. haha. which is impossible la cuz most of the lectures i cant really see the link between the content to tourism devt and all that and i don see where i could apply those things she said onto paper black and white. cuz the content is like, making sophisticated things out of very surface concepts. this is sociology i guess, but well, i have taken sth related to sociology. not bad. anyway i made good seniors there. worth the time la. no matter which human or arts subj i take. i sure CMI de. so forget it. i shall not change my decision. cuz i cant change too.

receive my econs grade thru mail.. scary. cuz now results are told u thru computer. computer tells u everything u did good or bad. i did not too good for econs, average score. maybe cuz im not too good at answering mcq questions. nv come across this before. cuz it's always essays and case studies. well. she gave us advice on whether we should SU. but since i made up my mind earlier that i want to minor in econs. i shall not think abt SU. cuz if i want to become a teacher. i need 2 teaching subjs. and econs perhaps could be one of them. see if next yr i could get a chem module or not.

lastly, calculus results for mid term is out! well, quite happy with the score! but i surely know that will be people who will do fAnTAsTiscally well for it. well. im happy and thats it.

now waiting for the project marks to be made known by tmr.
so which means that the only unknown thing will be. MAS 110! when are u coming out? people out there are so anxious cuz it will affect their decision!.

well. i shall start studying soon. MAS 111 quiz is next saturday. what a not 3 not 4 day which. on a fine good e learning week. no lessons for me. and i can go back to malaysia. when my plan is spoilt due to this test. ERRRERERERERERRR!!! an one hour test. which makes me sacrifice all my fun joy and laughter when i could actually attained in malaysia. abt a year plus since i went back to tampin. i miss that lovely little kampong! the fresh air, the wonderful little raw small bananas that my neighbour planted. xiao wan mian! i couldnt find the taste here in singapore. roasted meat. but somehow i can get to eat them due to special ways. the kind of silence there calms u down. that place which i go every holiday since i was born. well. i better do well for my quiz so that i will not regret.

should i pon next week's tourism lecture?
e learning week for spms next week.