Halloween House Party

It was a fun and tiring day today I guess.

I slept so late yesterday and woke up at 11am this morning. Time for lunch! And then me and leah head out to join the outdoor's halloween social at corn maize and pumpkin farm. It was a fun experience as we get to meet people, dressed up in halloween costumes. I just wore my hat and that's all.

I thought we will get to pick some corn. But it was really corn maze! rather than corn maize. Walked through the maze and we were on the other side of the farm, looking at pumpkins. We bought a small pumpkin too.

Then later on we went to a halloween house party near school. It is my first time entering a house! So excited. We dressed up again as characters. And everyone is going! That's the most fun part! We met other international students at the party as well. Ate pumpkin icing cookies, drink pop, and hang around, dance and socialise. I even tried pumpkin carving! IT's really interesting after you carve it and then lit the lights inside. Really nice! That was my favourite part of the night. At least I tried some culture thing different from singapore! It was really really a fun night. Met alot of friends and I truly enjoyed it!

Halloween Night Club!

I feel like an urge to blog now, though I should be sleeping. It's 4.15 am now in the wee hours.

I just came home from clubbing! Can you believe it? It's so late at night and I have never done this in the past before. We went to Rouge, a quite famous club in London, dressed in our halloween costumes. I dressed up as a witch, a studious one. I was really feeling very cold when we went for the ice hockey match. My roommate say, aiya short journey, no need to wear jeans! So I just wore my tights and out I go. I was feeling so cold. I realise I can't take it anymore and I just wore my winter socks and jeans when I go out for clubbing.

So ya, there I go. Wearing alot of layers, black coloured ones, and my ski jacket coat. And a scarf my uncle brought for me, along with my fake coloured hair and purple witch hat. I like my hat! Cuz it just cover my eyes. Mysterious. The girls help me put on some make up too. Somehow I thought I look really cool but with my specs on. It looks like... some fool having fun for Halloween.

We took a bus to down town and then cab on there to Rouge. It was quite a long queue, we had to queue to get inside. Waited for quite awhile. Saw many many of them dressed up. Some so funny, some so sexy and I don't know how they manage to do that. We went in around half an hour of wait. Got in and it was quite a huge place. Dark but full of disco lights. We first went to drank a shot, jingle bomb, taste like cough syrup, but I quite like it because it tastes something familiar. Then we just went on to the dance floor. I was just looking around. Observing people and the ambience there. The songs were very techno and it made my heart pounded very loudly. I kept on holding my heart. Scared it will drop. HAHAHAA!!! Then we went on to get the next shot. Turquilla. As usual it tastes that way. Hot inside. Then we went to the dance floor again. Dance dance dance. Suddenly, Ghis went blank and she passed out. She was dancing dancing and dancing, I guess she is too high but she doesn't know she lost her balance and couldn't stand properly. She fell towards us and the guys held her back. Then she laid down on her knees and we help her up. Got her ice water and rested there. I rested with her too. Can tell that she isn't feeling well. Probably drank too much at one go the first time. So I sat down and started to rest with her. Then a guy hit on me and ask me, "Do you want to go on the dance floor with me?" He was with another guy whom I think was still quite young. He touched my waist also! Ouch! But anyway, I rejected him, "OH sorry my friend wasn't feeling well and I got to accompany her." "Oh that's okay" Smiled and walk away. Then I got up to get another cup of ice water for her. The rest continued to dance and went back another time. Then I drank a sip from Calvin's drink he bought. Whiskey I think. I thought he was holding a cup of plain water haha!

Feeling really uncomfortable, she went inside the toilet and threw up her turquilla. Oh my, I was quite worried for her. We left the place as soon as possible. So sadly, there wasn't any cabs to reach. We walk all the way to downtown hoping to get on Mustang's Express but there wasn't anymore seats. We waited and sat along the streets. Some guys walked by and said, "you! Shame on you" Well whatever... I was just accompanying my friend. We walk and walk. And we saw another friend who were waiting for cab too. They even wore only a layer of dress and a coat. I wonder how they manage to do it on a cold night around 0 degree Celsius. We got 2 slices of pizza to share because we were very hungry and also, there isn't any cabs to hitch on. We wait for awhile and thus finally ruiming got a cab and ask me and leah on. And soon, we are back at 4am.

A cold freezing night. But it was an experience with a "supposed-to-be-nice" club. Well, it may be the last time I go. I tried my best to go since it was a Halloween night. To see the true colours of people.

Finally a week without midterms but there are assignments due. I guess the only week without any "thing" on my calender was week 1, when I just started school. And time flies, now it is week 7 for me! half way through... what a pity they don't have something called "recess week"...

I am beginning to 看开 about them. They want to talk to me, talk, don't want, I don't care. They want to be good to me, so be it. Maybe because it's me so that's why I'm like that. Like what they say, I'm very different from them and I think I am more irrational and do things by emotions and feelings. I am a women of principles! (Wah, I can't believe I said this.. HAHA) Thank you all my friends who tio-ed my ranting last week.

In quite good mood this week. Tried alot of cooking, especially soup. I want to try more before I go back to Singapore. I don't think I will dare to cook with fire.

Well, at least I found people of the same pattern as me. So not all people are like them! Which is a good thing. Am I really that boring to be with?

It's Halloween this week, kind of curious what is going on. But kinda dreaded the weekend too. It's gonna be fun but tiring because we are out for two days. I hope I have time to rest and catch up with my studies. I am slow in my studies and I am still slacking now. Oh well, yes I am an exchange student. Should go out and play right? If I let my roomie see this arh, she sure kill me! =P

I am kind of glad that she is my roomie. because without her, I alone, would never really dare to try alot of things like joining outdoors club, and kitchen club too. At least she talks to me, keeps me belong, and also sometimes talk to me about my problems and never really avoid my questions. At least there is someone who knows what I am thinking. And we just realised both of us doesn't like to eat fish balls in particular!

I really dislike the way I am being treated

Wasted my 5 hours of life today discussing this stupid assignment. If I had known how to do, I wouldn't want to do assignment with them! What is the point of having a 3 man group but only 2 people are discussing? They just completely leave me out of the conversation. Be it travelling, playing, eating, even doing assignment. To them, I am just a follower or a leecher.

Go my toilet, never flush, need me to help flush. So damn disgusting lah! Please lah...

I am still considering if to go for the conference. Ask about what is it, like not willing to tell me. Also don't wanna let me know the plans for Toronto. Just because they think I am not the kind who will skip lessons. Fine... I shall not skip and miss the trip. Anyway, I will be going to Toronto after exams too. But I guess the conference is really interesting. Should I ? Should I not? I really feel very sian...

I had fun in the outdoor trip today. though I went with Seria but throughout I walked pretty much alone too. I guess people here are not the sticky sticky kind. Wah, the mud is really disgusting and it destroyed my shoes. I had no idea that it was the dirty trail today. But everything was fun and I enjoyed myself looking at nature and scenary. Pretty much getting away from normal routine. My weekdays are burnt again. No time to catch up with my stuff.

Thank so much roomie for talking out with me my problems. I think she also realised that I was quite angry on that day. Well I guess I was tired and completely bored down by them...

两头不到岸

I don't want to 两头不到岸... seriously.

I come here to experience the life of a Canada student in university. None did I expect that the culture is quite different from me. Especially the partying part. I don't enjoy partying. Rather, I don't enjoy partying with the wrong people that I don't feel comfortable initially to begin with. I can proudly say I have been to one, to experience it. But I don't really enjoy. So there is no point continuing with this.

My parents told me to concentrate on my studies. At the same time, I would also want to travel around to see see look look. Travelling has always been my wish and dream. However, with the "wrong people" I am with now, plus, studies have been flopping. I really really lose this momentum and motivation. And my parents don't like the idea of me going to too many places around. Which is why sometimes I am bounded with dilemmas, constraints, people don't understand that. Background is different. Stop expecting my life to be the same as others.

Got back my midterms today, as expected. But I didn't expect myself to pass. Still, second lowest in class. So what if I attend classes every day? Most of the time, I am either tired, or not paying attention. I want to pay full attention! I tell myself I will. What happen to the spirit then? Why do people play as hard as me, and also study harder than me? When I appear to study harder than them, but apparently I'm not? When I am distracted by personal feelings, I can't concentrate at all. It's week 6 already. Why am I feeling so tired? I guess I have been lazing around doing other unconstructive things. I need more time. I always have lesser time than other people to do more things that I want.

I hope midterms today will be good. I tried my best to write everything I can think of. At least it it not that bad lah.

I made decision to go for the outdoor trip tomorrow. I seriously feel like idiot for creating the picnic page when it was already known that the picnic will be held tomorrow. I'm sorry to say, I wasn't inform at all so ya... I take it as nothing happen. I'm quite excited to go and meet new people. Initially I thought it is better to take courses with someone else I know. But now it feels like, I could have gone alone and go classes alone. That's what most of the Canadian students here are doing. Well anyway, I hope tomorrow's trip is gonna turn out fun!

Is it because my expectations of everything are held too high?

I am just angry with myself for not putting enough effort into the test today. The questions are just repeated from lecture and I didn't bother to go thru line by line. End up I don't know how to do most questions. Fail liao lor like that. Yes Yes all of you all must be thinking ya it's just pass fail so don't worry. But afterall the grades will somehow be reflected on the transcript and it is not nice to just pass everything right. I still want to do well and give in my best, even though I am on exchange. And also, I still want to continue doing other things too. Even though it is just a midterm paper. I feel really really lousy. Never did I do badly before. My parents must be mad at me.

Is it because of new environment? Distractions? New style of learning?

No excuses. I am just plain too tired, distracted, not paying much attention in class, dozing off most of the time (which I really seldom do in NTU), chiong last minute assignments (never ever did I do that before), just merely touching and going unprepared for a test.

I need to buck up and move on in life!

Seriously, it's a bad day today. So tiring, after a long day at lessons, and a lousy midterm paper. Plus, the stormy weather makes me so drenched and brain freeze on my way back. I never felt so 狼狈 before. I thought I could have a decent dinner when I got home, but apparently, I have to cook... when I end my lessons so late. Nevermind, the rice is so sucky... Atrocious dinner, and it has nothing to do with my pork, seriously.

Is it the problem with me? First, going to lessons with me seems a boring thing and showing me black faces all the time? Having to not reply me properly when I ask a question, even though the question is stupid. Second, having to keep putting words into my mouth whenever I say something of my own opinion and infer some meaning not of the intended message. Assuming that I do well in anything when actually I am not. No you can't judge! Third, insisting on cooking but when it's your turn, it will suddenly become my turn to cook. I'm not against it and I have been sacrificing most of my sleep and studying time just to cook. So what if you need to study, I also have to study right? And leaving everything in the kitchen UNATTENDED. I thought I am a lazy and dirty person that's why my mum always have to nag at me, but apparently I can't stand the mess in the kitchen. Wanting to sleep more and having to cook each meal before the night, making it so unhealthy. And just because some people suggested you to cook a big pot of rice, leave in the kitchen, sprinkle water and heat it up whenever you want to eat... you really suggested it to me, and this results in a straight NO in your face.

Did I meet the wrong group of people? Or is it simply the problem with me?

Lesson learnt again, don't leave anything cooking unattended. I thought it was okay to turn up the boiling of the soup to 5. Never did I thought the water could actually disappear to only half of it remaining when I came back from my friend's room. Luckily nothing happen to the stove or my pot, it's just half the amount gone. There goes our herbal soup. Well anyway, Ghis made great pies! I am going to do it once I'm back in Singapore.

3 Midterms this week. One down. I hope I am managing well after a very lousy midterm I had last week. I really want to give in my best, although it's just pass fail. Afterall, the grades will be reflected on their transcript right? Yaya, we are exchange students so we should not work hard. But you are first a student, and then a student on exchange wad... Well I think very straightly.

I am not studying for my midterm tmr!! How can? I am still slacking and lazing around, too tired..

Seriously, my roomie really chu stunt yesterday. Going out late in the middle of the night to buy bubble tea with a guy. -_-'' I was quite worried til I tried to wait for her. But in the end, she is not back yet! Luckily today I still can survive well in class. How can a girl agree to go out late in the middle of a night with a guy she don't know really well.

Today I cook pork chop rice! It looks nice! haha...