I really feel very unhappy at certain points of time. I don't know why.

I know I am not very good to post that status on facebook. But I was kinda sian when she says she is coming back to cook but didn't in the end. And she also says in the whatsapp conference that she is coming back to cook. If she hasn't said it all, I wouldn't have been so pissed. At least not what I expected, I know it's not her fault. I shouldn't have been small minded.

I have already reached the stage whereby I don't know how to communicate to any single one of them. I don't know how to face them, with the appropriate facial expressions. Hence the cycle repeats. I don't want to feel judged, just because of the angry faces I give and affect other people. I don't know what wrong have I done too. I can't see myself in the mirror. Others do. I don't see why am I being treated differently. Whatever you want to say to me, just tell me. Why do you all have to keep it to yourself and then accommodate? Am I that difficult to talk to?

Different people. That's how difference can seriously make a great difference.

At this point, I really really want to go back to Singapore. Back to my own world.

It's not really healthy to feel this way. I know exchange must be really fun. But why? What happened?

The only reason I can think of, I met the wrong group of people, wrong as in, different from me. But thankfully, there are still people I can turn to if I need help.