that phone call

i was getting restless today
awake at 7plus...
tossing and turning on my bed
smelling the luo mi fan that mum was preparing in the kitchen
waiting and waiting til 8 plus...
she finally came in and saw me awake
9 am came...
according to what i know
the school will know the results by now

i hope the school will call and i am waiting for a mysterious call
i hope lah.. i really hope...
maybe i was too complacent?

i constantly annoyed my mum
like... 怎么办？考不好怎么办？？？？'
guess she was really frustrated with me
i got up and ate my bfast
which was luo mi fan that she made

just as i was abt to give up hope...
then donno who sms me for the class lunch
i was abt to decide that i wanna go
then i sms yt
just as i was abt to reply her
a mysterious phone call came at 1009
i thot it was karen's or asta's home number
it looks like...
i pick up
"hello may i speak to jiaxin"..
"err yes"
"hi this is miss chua calling from pjc. just to inform u that i did very well for ur A levels..."
at this point of time. i was really shocked. my legs are numb...
"then can u report at 12.15 at lt1"
"oh ok"
so she repeated.. i too excited to tell my mum.. i actually said
ok bbye bye" (so rude hor?)
then she asked me to wear appropriate attire cuz i'll be going on stage to receive my results...
then i hang up
i jump all the way to my mum and keep jumping
OOOOOO!!!!!
i did well....

my mum had tears of joy too... she was happy with me
few mins ago she was just as frustrated and worried
then i didnt go for lunch

shall wear my favourite clothes there which is the 2 lovely cats

was on the 985
as usual i had to wait
then i saw a number of pj students
maybe also receive the call
gng to sch together
chatted with some of them
like.. why no peeps from my class

then i reach the school
saw zhiying!!!
and few other guys... like wz, dex, eu and mervin , shaun and wk
quite happy to see eu and he also did well despite his cranky behaviour during j2
talk and talk and was getting restless... couldnt sit properly
keep standing up
then as usual the meeting always late
saw a couple of my students walking out of lt
quite happy to see them
but thinking that i'm giving s27 up..
abit sad la
saw his classmates... but where is he?
slowly we walked into lt1 and miss cheng called me 'miss yeong sit in front'
i was like.. EEHHHH
got briefed abt scholarship stuff
very contented that i am one of them to have the chance to be encouraged to go for a scholarship
but me and zy was questioning each other abt our results
i still question myself..
if fail gp how??? i think wont la... still can go up stage if fail gp meh???

there was a break... so i went out to pass sth to my classmate and i saw him coincidentally.
saw my lovely classmates!!!
and mel passed me my photos...
arggh!!! and i gave asta a hug... so happy!!
walked around and caught up with them
then go in again

waited for quite a long time before proceeding to the hall
the cool hall... isnt cool at all cuz theres alot of pple inside
then slowly teachers brief us abt the uni application stuff (i saw him again!!!, i think he saw me)
after that mrs tan announced the results..
saw those improved students... all As ... was like... ARH!!!!!
kinda embarrassing cuz by right we should do better

then we got 3 As as expected and seen from the formation of the arrangement
except for SC who got 4 As sitting at the back...
well done everybody!!! gave zy a hug too...
went on stage to receive my results from mrs tan
this was the first and last time of my life that i receive results on stage
i think i will nv forget this moment... just a few secs only
then the rest of them receive their results
we took photos on stage ...
got to wait very long..
then that james did star jumps across the stage ... so funny.. haha
immediately after the photo taking
we dashed out to s25 booth and straight away brought our good news to mrs tay
she was shedding tears of joy cuz we did well for chem
all get A and B
that was the unforgettable moment when we are very excited abt our results
holding our results happily and took a photo with her.
and also thanking her for making us do and do and do chem stuff
i turn back again.. trying to catch the last appearance of u .. but where r u?
chatted and chatted... discuss abt our results
and then we proceeded to lt 1 for briefings again
its only for awhile
we went out to join the classmates again
at the canteen at the foyer
sat at the foyer and camp for a very long time
its home again! like wad jl said..
sat for a few hours talking to mrs tay
wanna take a photo but forgot again

was talking to my mum on the phone telling her abt my results
then a group of students looking at me
thinking if i am that relief teacher who taught them
and yes ... i was that teacher... haha gt problem is it???

after that we went to lot one new york new york for our lunch / dinner???
cuz most of us starved for quite a long time
worrying abt results
now finally can enjoy le..

chatted and crapped alot
suddenly feel quite emo
partly becuz i think i could do well in my gp.. but i think i tried my best
cuz normally in school i am that grade...
and mostly becuz its so long time that we can gather tgt as a class to talk cock again
really missed those times we had
jc life has completely ended for us
and we are starting our uni life soon...
i don wanna be separated ...
but no matter what... everybody needs to pursue their dreams
i can now proudly say
this two years are the best times out of my school life!!!

i'll definitely missed the times we had
next class outing???
gonna wish the guys good luck for their pop
best frens forever!
i donno when i will get to see him again...
take care everybody!!!

and thanks to those who wished me good luck and congrats verbally, thru sms !
my parents, my cousin, xinyi (hillgrove), xinyi og 6, zi jian, yihan, xinyu, meiling, zhihui, huiyi, jasmine, tunjiang, dawn, xinhui, asta ,qian yu, karen, yt, sylvia, wilfred, huichen, enrui, caleb low, yongsheng, liling and friends, jiahui, bo lin , weijie, natalie, eileen, jan, peiqi, caleb lim, alvin, my classmates, zhiying, teachers esp mrs tay and ms cheng, mr chua

miss everyone!

2nd part: just wanna say sth regarding my results after i got it..
感触良多, 只想发挥一下

GP
i do not have a forte in english since young, cant even speak properly sometimes. but as i grow up, my communication skills are a little better after i mingled with people. my expressions and the way i write seems misleading at times. and gp is testing abt the way you express and link all ur ideas. so during sec sch i tried very hard not to have any grammatical errors because i know i will go wrong in my sentence structure or expression. and since grammar is sth that is standard. i cant afford to penalise myself. after so much of writing of essays from sec sch til now. my grammar become worse due to being nonchalant. but i buck up after that. its the content that kills. if it is chinese it wouldnt be a problem cuz i can smoke my way thru but its english. i dont have the way to smoke thru unlike chinese which i am better in. even though with the help of times mag. i admit i din have the time to read it cuz i have to complete many tutorials and revisin. i can only glance thru some. knowing the facts is different from applying them. i din know how to master the skills and so.. explains my result. though i tried very hard all the time.
before results release i was telling myself. not to fail ... and in the end, though i din fail. peeps around me scored better than i am. though i am aiming for a C but hoping to pass will be happy enough already. just feel left out sometimes. but i am grateful for this result because i nv get this result before throughout my 2 years in jc. which means to say i've improve! i should be contented cuz im at least better than those straight As but failed right? sorry abt this if i have offended ... but i should be contented. enough of this crap.. i'm just finding excuses to explain what didnt i do better? right?

Econs
this is a subj which will help balance my gp grade. i wasnt good at econs initially but i buck up despite the fact that i started econs later than those who have taken this subj during pae. slowly i climb to the top during prelims. that was in class. and that was pulled up by my essay. i have nv done well in case studies before and i remember how embarrassing it feels to when mdm khoo read out all those who have scored single digit in the usual case study practice. same thing. i didnt know how to apply those skills in case study. im just using knowledge from i've learnt in sec sch SBQ. i know i cant do case. so i mug on essays. and also tried to analyse as much case as possible and refer to how people answer the questions... same thing happens during A lvls. i think i screwed that paper up which ultimately pulled my grade down to a C. i am not inclined in arts subj though econs can be considered for both arts and sci subj. getting a C is quite good enough. i didnt know mdm khoo had such high hopes on me and she said i normally did well in class. no i didnt. i have always screwed up case studies didnt i? i did well in essays and i admit it during my prelims. did i disappoint her? i think i did and it makes me disappoint myself cuz she's a good teacher i guess. and peeps who normally din do well in class did better than me which i came to know abt it at a later date. but i dont think this will stop my passion of wanting to pursue econs since its essay based in uni. who knows one day case study may pop out? it is the result that will ultimately refrain myself from touching econs. but i dislike memorising cuz by understanding concepts, i will have to reproduce this concepts out by memorising. so... just afraid. like what we always say: econs is an interesting subj to study and know more abt, but not exam subj. maybe we really din put in enough effort cuz we always know that how much effort we put in for econs ultimately wont bear any fruit. right? its abt using common sense sometimes.
ok. i m not disappointed. just ok with it=))

math
as expected. though i smoke one question on complex and i was definitely happy abt my smoking skills and even boasted it to my friends! and i didnt know how to do a probability question even. knowing people from top jcs will score full marks for the paper sometimes shake my confidence level. mel asked me this question: if ur A levels got a B, what will u do? i replied: i seriously donno, cuz i nv got a B for math in my whole life. 不知所措 ba. knowing this. i faster buck up my math cuz i haven been touching math for a long time during j2. since i know i can do it in prelims. i focus all my heart and soul on my weaker subjs like phy esp and econs, gp. but who knows what may occur during marking at cambridge. it is better to play safe. luckily mel reminded me abt this somehow, i better be prepared. cuz i will be very very sad if i am stuck with a B for math in my whole life. its my forte. my passion.

chem
with the help of mrs tay and mr tan. i can still feel the excitement when we ran down to stage to go 'hug' mrs tay tgt with the 3 As peeps. i take her word very seriously and did all her hw assigned to us. but i am still weak at some knowledge and concepts. tys helps. she helped greatly at organic chem cuz my foundation from j1 wasnt good at all.. but i slowly climb up to an A finally. she said: A levels result will haunt u for life... just do well as thats it. don let the course choose u but u choose the course. i still remembered how scared we were attending her lesson during jan 08. i like chem too.

phy
i've said i didnt wanna touch phy after O lvls cuz of some common reason i had with my sec sch classmates. but after looking at the uni requirement. phy is quite impt and flexible to go for many courses. esp engineering. and i also i dislike memorising and life sciences.. thats bio.. i go for physics then though i didnt do well in Os... i'm stuck with it. though i prefer understanding and applying equations. it was still ok during j1s, is it cuz the chaps were easier? but when j2 starts, it is a nightmare! it was still ok in common test, i manage to get a B somehow by luck. but teachers said phy is easy to score and ace for. i believed them so i continued working hard. dont drop phy! anyway we are also thinking of dropping subjs by then. by mid year i alr realise i couldnt make it, i didnt understand most concepts. ok. simple ones i do. but when the question and diagrams change... i blur blur already. i was thinking of dropping this subj already but looking at how impt this subj is. given the fact that my econs wasnt that fantastic in the first place. i decided to try harder again. but sometimes due to being ignorant. i didnt consult teachers too (u know why?) so this continues til prelims. my phy got worse. but before that karen alr drop this subj. i am still thinking? what stand am i for? to cont or to drop since im already suffering at this subj. just don wanna waste my effort or let it go down the drain for a long time and i am already everyday doing phy to pull up my grade but that doesnt help for prelims even. forget it i shall continue la. naive me was thinking where did my third A come from? should be econs cuz i was quite satisfied with my essays. but no.. its PHYSICS!!! omg i did it, like how? my prelims was E and now A? so i confirmed myself... it was spa who helped me alot i guess... i haven proven u wrong that i did it ! i used to fear this subj even... and swore that i din wanna touch this subj.. who knows i may meet mr physics again in uni. i am happy with this subj, surprised even...

i may be worried abt my gp grade, but i know its fixed already and it is already very good... i should say. so i am contented with my three of a kind=)