tough decisions

life after receiving A level wasnt good afterall!
there is really alot of thinking and deciding of ur career path
and ur intended course to pursue of ur interest
for my intended course to pursue i don really have to ponder alot
cuz i already ponder alot alot before that...
and that i wanna go with my interest to study math
i shall not be stuck at sth i don like for 4 years and to study sth i don like for 4 years...
even though i don need a math degree to teach math at sec/ jc
i would still go for it cuz there are still other job prospects around which also interest me i guess
i am also little bit narrowed into engineering due to the wide job prospects available too
i guess i still go with my interest!

the one i worry for is the scholarship application
cuz with the extreme grades im getting
i don even know what are the chances of getting it
i guess i would just go for a try!
and try and try until i get it=)
it's a pity to get such pitiful results isnt it?
i don like to feel this way either...
can somebody console me?

and scholarship application are a real headache..
partly due to the essay that needs editing
everything done within 10 days after the release of results
are teaching scholarships sufficient???
do i still need to apply for other organisations?
the deadline is running short... if i make some last minute plans
whereas for NTU and NUS scholarships, the deadline is still 2 weeks away ..
so it's quite alright

and the thing is i have to depend everything on myself to do everything
that i have to seek help from peeps esp karen and also teachers to give me advices and reminders of deadlines and so on
my parents arent there to help me decide
i'm left alone to decide my future...
perhaps some admin matter i can still seek their help
donno if i'm applying for financial aid...
that's another area of concern...

i just my course of interest will accept me
just that... i wanna study what i want to study=)

at least i tried my best in all the ways...