Sometimes I don’ really know how people of this age think. Maybe I’m just tired, but it’s only the first week of school without tutorials! I have to reset my body clock, going back to JC times when I have lessons early in the morning, and I can’t walk to my bed properly to sleep – that’s how tired I can be when I wake up too early. Nevertheless, I’m just tired, tired, TIRED!
Sometimes I wonder: Why do people change? How do people change? When do people change? Or is it that I’m the one who didn’t change at all, or even change a lot? Change is constant. Yes, I know that. Haha...
In my eyes, everybody just suddenly change that I couldn’t even recognise you all at all as my friends that I have known in the past. I really feel tired face to face talking; my words kind of cannot be heard by. Is it because of my tone? I should change a little to sound nicer, but not all the time right? What I did for friends, is it worth my time? I tried to be selfless, but because of that others are becoming more self interested. What am I doing all this? I just can’t bear to say this: I feel lonely when there are still people around me talking to me, my heart feels being left out. I’m sorry but I have to pour it all out. And why? Why do people only find you if you are needed, but neglect you when you are useless to them?
Am I worth having friends? I do treasure friendships; just that I don’t know how long would it last. Or rather, is it better to stick back to the square usual me going to places alone and venturing out?
I’m sorry for being harsh in my choice of words. I’ve piled it up these few days already. Perhaps this is part of growing up. Could somebody please just enlighten me?
Haha, my student just reminded me by sending this song. Maybe because my period is coming? But ya, I seriously do not think it's PMS la... Don't worry about me. I'm fine.
ni chu le "haha okok...", jiu mei you qi ta dong xi ke yi shuo ma?
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