C'est La Vie

Exams are finally over! After a week of shag-ness, paper after paper every morning.

Humans are always in a dilemma right? When you are tired, you badly want a rest. But when everything's over, you want to get busy again. Just like now, exams are over. There's not much stuff I can look forward to. But counting and counting, there are quite a lot of stuff for me to do which I don't really feel like doing. For example, thinking my thought over. One thing good about exams is, it keeps your mind free of anything else but the content of exams. However, silly people like me will get distracted for no good reason. Now since exams are over, I don't feel any sense of distractions at all from my weird thinking. I'm weird. Haha... never mind.

Leaving for Malaysia tomorrow. I'm thinking about what to do there. I hope there's something for me to do. I've checked the Malaysia's TV guide. Well, at least there are some Singapore shows to watch. But no 小娘惹. Crazy over 小娘惹 now because it's a very successful Singapore show. I always watch TV during exam period to motivate myself, but I don't watch it during semester. How opposite! And I have yet to pack my stuff!

Exam passes really fast for this time. 6 days and it's gone. Or precisely, 8 days inclusive of weekends. For last sem, there are still breaks in between to get really prepared for a paper. Esp MAS 111, quite a long time to prepare, but during the long time, motivation can die off very fast. That was the time I wanted a rest fast.

All my 3 cores are not well done. There is always a trap at one or two questions. Maybe the most confident paper is French? Maybe because I haven't been putting in much effort this semester. My fighting spirit is zero.

Long holidays await. 4 months? Let's see, I have HI event, YOG stuff which is going to take up August. I am going to work, but not sure where. Finding some tuitions to get myself occupied.

This sem is super difficult for me. I supposed. For others as well because the content are so much tougher than before. Esp Accounting and Linear Algebra. If year 1 sem 2 is already like that. How am I going to survive the rest of my uni life? How am I going to cope with the upcoming stress? Maybe this time I'm distracted by my own emotions. I will take a good rest, to sort out my thinking and all that kind of stuff. Well, I guess I shouldn't complain much. I think it's difficult, others may think it's more difficult. Who am I to complain?

C'est la vie. That's life. If you are on top, you are afraid of falling. If you are not on top, you want to climb up badly. In both ways, in whatever circumstances, there will be sacrifices made. Is to see whether do you want to make sacrifices to achieve those things and aims you want.

Ne laisse pas le temps, le décevoir.
Je ne peut être conquis
Dans la tristesse,
Dans la douleur.
Aujourd’hui, demain...
Au fil du temps... Le temps...
C’est La Vie...

也许我会再遇见你
像恋人般重逢美丽
看你满脸胡渣的笑意 爽朗一如往昔
Cest La Vie Cest La Vie Cest La Vie

Sometimes I always think, if you put in your very best. The best will come back to you. However, there is contradiction and counterexample. Okay, I sounded so Math now. There are certain things in life that does don't work this meritocracy way.

走一个城市的陌生 走到了
曙光无知无觉的黎明
一路微笑的满天繁星 消失在日出里
Cest La Vie Cest La Vie Cest La Vie

Can somebody teach me to smile from the bottom of my heart?
Move on. Life will be better. But how can I bear to give up?

oh~~塞纳河的水 是心的眼泪
流过了 你笑的 每个样子
我会在你的记忆 看到我自己
看到了结局
爱在错过后 更珍惜

Tears. Sorrow. Down the drain. Swollen eyes. Brain and headache. Accompanies me every night.
They are my bad friends. Of having the second regret in my life. All because I'm too naive and stubborn. The world doesn't revolve around me. Similarly, the world doesn't stop revolving due to my non-existence. 风照样在吹，雨照样在飘。。。

都将走向新的旅途 Au rev oir
说好不为彼此停留
看车窗外的你 沉默不语
我不再哭泣
Cest La Vie Cest La Vie Cest La Vie

I didn't kept the promise. Pardon. I really hope this day would come. My eyes need a good rest. However, those times would never be erased from my heart. Look on the brighter side.

oh~~塞纳河的水 是心的眼泪
流过了 漂泊的 人生风景
愿我们各自都有 美好的一生
美好的憧憬
爱在遗憾里 更清晰

Whatever has been decided had been decided. I wished time could turn back. This is impossible right? No matter how hard I try, time would never allow to go back to the wonderful times.
As a conclusion, hardwork can never defeat fate and destiny. No matter what is the conclusion. I would still give a try. Because I know, I tried my best. To face the reality.

也许我会再遇见你
像恋人般重逢美丽

Who knows? I may be happier in time to come. Who knows? I will still meet you again. Who knows? We will know each other again right from the scratch. Who knows? 老天自有安排。。。
However, right now. I don't want to believe in anything. I only believe in my wishful thinking and my naive-ness and stubborn-ness.

Cest La Vie Cest La Vie
Cest La Vie

That's life... Not within our own means.