I really like this song for now...

I got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world some day
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

What about us? What about everything we've been through?
What about trust?
You know I never want to hurt you
What about me?
What am I supposed to do?
I gotta leave but I'll miss you.

Nice right? At least it somehow fits my feeling for now. Everything may seem too fast for now. But thinking back, it has been quite a while. The feeling of anger at first overwhelmed. But of course, we would still wish you good luck. (*Okay, means I have to work harder!) Relationships isn't easy to maintain. I thought, to meet the right person in life is really really difficult. I am really cautious, but at the same time, looking forward to meet this person.

What I would like to say is? I don't know if this will really put me into a very dangerous situation. No matter how much I like the person, I would want to be reserved and not say or reveal anything out to the person, or to other people. I would always just remain quiet and all, waiting for gold to drop down from the sky. Even if the person is taken, or even if time goes by and the feelings for this person subside, I would just, sit down there in one lone corner and cry... for not making feelings known at least. I would prefer guys to be initiative and I will always be the one being initiated, at least for the start of relationships. After that, haha! I can do whatever I want!

At least for the past, my greatest regret was not to make my true feelings known to this person at the right time. It was only after amber, then I started to blurt out everything. Things would have changed for at least better a bit? But I cannot predict my future too. But after these days, I believed there is a better one out there. I am really moving on.

What is all occupying my mind is ... not this kind of stuff which always makes my sem 2 very depressed. but it is rather, when can I find time to catch up on my work? I have been slacking since week 0 for studies, doing other stuff like having time with friends and instep. The deadline is getting nearer. Just because of two letters of referrals, it make us go up and down thick-skinned to find prof. At last we found two by luck, but it took me 40 minutes late for lecture. It took me just 15 minutes to finish my lunch to rush off for lecture too. The whole procedure is driving me crazy sometimes. All my plans have to be stopped halfway just to settle last minute stuff. I have not been arriving early for lectures, this time it's super late like 20 to 30 minutes, even up to an hour. With that kind of mentality that, I don't understand or not even listening to the lecturers, go there cui... And with HW, I hope things can really improve!
Sometimes I really got the urge to click your name on msn.