Seriously, where got people fall sick two times on CNY de? I think only me lor...

Today I woke up feeling aching all over, shivering but hot beneath me. I feel as though my legs want to come out like this. I think because I have been entering cold lecture rooms, coming out to hot sun again, back and forth. Plus, I drank alot of bahkutteh soup that my mum made. At that time, I really feel if someone can just beat me into coma so I won't feel anything at all. I cried, why am I so useless? Just one body of mine and I cannot take care of it properly.

Actually I have alot of activities today, I was supposed to go and watch Chingay with my mum. End up I cannot recover in time and she has to find another replacement to go, if not, $20 ticket is wasted. I was also supposed to go to tuition today but because of Chingay, I told them I cannot make it for tuition and the reunion dinner. My friend is celebrating his 21st birthday in JB today, and I've long ago gave that a miss. My father side family wants to lou hei today too. End up, I stayed at home.

I am worried for myself, how do I adapt to another climate in Canada in another 6 months? Maybe I should go for a whole body check up again. A brain scan. Whatever scans in me. I mean, it's just impossible that I could just fell sick consecutively after I have recovered, then 2 weeks later, the cycle starts, then another 3 weeks or so to recover completely, then the cycle starts again. I must get back to exercising and yoga.

Maybe it is a time to reconsider my decision to be a committed tutor in rsphi. I don't want to end up being irresponsible and whatever I do will affect sheryl. I seriously do not know when will I fall down again. Maybe it's a time for me to leave... but a feeling of unbearable-ness.