Thank goodness I am still alive and kicking!

I knew I had a long day today, but stubborn me just refused to rest early yesterday to complete my urgent matters.

I intentionally slept til 7am today so I can get more rest as possible. So I reach my lesson at 9am, which was supposed to be at 830. Tried out the lab stuff, though it seems unfamiliar to me. but R doesn't seem that difficult to understand. And luckily I have pt with me to guide me along, with me missing a lecture on that.

Then there goes the most dreaded thing of the day. HW meeting, as usual, only like 4 people can turn up. And there is this person who turn up just for the sake of turning up. I have to painstaking try to make the person talk but the thing is, I cannot understand what he is trying to say. I think I have appointed the wrong person to bring laptop because apparently she was late for almost an hour. And I don't know if we were still moving on the right track. I hope my idea has something to do. I am really clueless. I see darkness in this team. I hope things get better as we move on. Please!

I ate lunch and go off to give tuition, transferred 3 buses. Was like so tiring. But I just need some money. Luckily my brain still feels alive and I could solve all the questions that she asked me. Sometimes my tuitee give me that, "Oh really? You can actually do this ____" enlightened face makes me wanna laugh HAHA! But I had joy teaching her. I hope I can continue this only tuition because I am in need of money for my canada =( All because I just lost a tuition job.

Then I quickily rush back to school, took a train instead because I was too tired of taking buses. Made a stupid decision to wait for bus C cuz it seems like it's not gonna come. Then, I made myself late for 20 mins. How good! And then in the lecture, somebody just don't make our day right? But hai, things has already happened. Time cannot turn back. Seriously, I don't really feel at a loss now, but, worried for myself too. I don't feel at all jealous, sad or whatever, but rather, a feeling of trust doubting and anger. But of course, k must be feeling a sense of 'cheatedness' and 'foolishness'. I am starting to wonder, how will my life turn for the next year? esp in r/s. It seems exciting!

My day in school ended with a not so good ending. But my day ended great with dinner with my noisiest and funniest friend. I had a real taste of original tom yam with chilli. The chilli isn't that spicy to the throat, but hot to the mouth that's all. My voice still feels wierd now. Don't be afraid by my new voice now!

Do I really not know how to read people's emotions? I really was complacent that I thought I was sensitive enough to read it from people... am I wrong? Please guide me...