You know, it isn't a great feeling to be sick over a lunar new year.

Lunar new year has soon lost its significance as years go by. We don't go to each other's house to pay a visit because everyone thinks that relatives see each other only once a year, so they have even nothing to talk about to one another. They rather save the visit. Well, I don't know if this is true. At least this happens.

I wasn't at all looking forward to cny this year, maybe I was just looking forward to the long 4 day break I have. A time for me to hibernate. I kind of dislike new year eve because like I told my mum (was meant to be a casual joke): I couldn't sleep on the bed on that night, that I have to sleep on the floor mattress all the time in new year eve. I have to wear new clothes when I sleep. And new clothes are not that comfy as old clothes =P

Xin nian kuai le, gong xi fa cai are all just so cliche. You say that to your relatives all the time. Then what you get back is, xue ye jin bu, kuai gao zhang da. And your angbao goes. That's it. End of talk.

Maybe I seem too pessimistic in the sense that, I have no respect for the adults. But yeah, that's reality. They don't respect us either. Why bother so much in doing good deeds every year?

This time, I have to point my 5 fingers to the rain. The cause of everything. The biggest reason for my cough, and the biggest reason for every trouble we got in MLS. We couldn't board any trains. We have to take buses. We didn't and forget to bring alot of things back to MLS... Bla bla bla. Lazy to update.

I told my mum if I collect up to $100 worth angbaos excluding those from my parents. I would have to take off my hat already. HAHA! I only collect a pathetic 3 angbaos in mls. But I definitely collected alot of ANG BAO on my leg, plus a big black bao too!

Sometimes I feel that, am I just too weak to get up and do things? Or am I just plain lazy or can't be bothered to do anything to solve some problems? Or am I just tired to care about everything and anything? Simply just want to be selfish and live a life of my own ? I know I can't, but I want. There are alot of things in the world that, or rather, everything in the world that doesn't fall so smoothly on you. Conclusion: I lost my self-confidence.

I am sorry. I know I could have done better. Which one? My mentality that many things are not for me to go and bother about? OR, my mentality that I couldn't do everything right, the feeling of 力不从心?

One thing for sure, I have to regain my health.

Back to school, hmmm, I don't really like this feeling now... HAHA!