decided!

PSC application is closing soon!

finally decided on what to apply
those board scholarships look appealing and attractive
cuz i really need the money
and i don mind working for them
not to say the bond
but after much consideration
i would think my passion is still on teaching
even though i really don mind working in another company

so i guess i drop off the idea
like what my mum say
don apply for so much...
cuz it'll leave undecided (i guess noone knows what i mean)

so i'll be happy with what ever is decided and what ever i tried for
and i'll only apply for teaching and ocbc, and the schools' scholarship
my mum keeps insisting that i have to pay back ocbc
after taking their scholarship
is that true?
if i have to pay back
that would be a loan instead.
not a scholarship right?

nvm

essays essays and essays...
i think i will have to bother mrs beh time and again to help me edit my stuff
million thanks to her!

next i'll have to worry abt uni application again
i'll still stick to ntu bah..
since my heart's telling me to go there

i am addicted to mahjong!
go try wahjong on viwawa!

the more i know, the more i don want to know

this is the last week of term 1
which essentially will be my busiest week of all
cuz i have to cover 5 classes of math, mostly h1
and mdm lim's classes - 2 of them tgt with yt
and also the last week that i'll be taking s27

i just realised that their thurs lesson clashed with s25's lesson
means i have one less lesson with them ... sad

then i have to rush thru applications of scholarships
esp PSC .. MOE teaching scholarship that im vying for
so have to churn out essays to be edited
not in mood to really touch on the math syllabus and their admin stuff
everyday stare at the com with miss cheng...
churning out our essays and making decisions

that was a monday
when i was in the living room writing my essay
mdm fel tan gave me a piece of advice
"it's not abt the best qualities that u have, it's what each company look out for in u"
bear in mind the target audience
which is quite true

tues was less stressed cuz my essay was being sent for vetting
but more classes...
and i have to teach the h1 syllabus
mainly our A math stuff
i din really prepare..
to think that i can impromptu teach...
i have a great sense of achievement
that prepares me better and improve my public speaking skills i supposed?

nothing much on wed
just that a lot of lessons to be covered
til i hungry
saw the band lunch time concert

on thurs
i wore my hot pink dress to sch (the one i wore on first day of CNY)
and mr lee called me STRAWBERRY in front of everyone in the staff room
and he went to tell everyone that im strawberry =(
so i called him watermelon instead... a mutated one
drank him up (drank watermelon and apple fruit juice)



saw zhixiang outside staff room
kinda surprised cuz i was in my 'embarrassing' strawberry suit
took us quite a long time to realise that it was him
had a long day i guess

there comes friday
we had the staff lunch
finally im a staff and i can enjoy the good food in the canteen
but, i can only eat a little cuz my lessons clashed and i got to invigilate many tests
what a pity
after that there's alumni meeting... with peer coaches
abt the 10th anniversary project
PIONEER PALETTE
taught us how to use the paint and so on

tgif
went to catch a super abstract movie WATCHMEN
noone understands the plot
and it's M18.. first time im watching M18
violence and sexual content...
too gross at some parts...
i thought the movie would end some time
i took off my jacket
but so it dragged on and on
starts at 5.35pm end at 8.15pm
too hungry
went to food court to eat and caught up with one another
nice feeling of having friends around.. eating dinner
though its a simple fare, it makes me happy=)

went for NTU open house...
i went there early due to the talk that i wanna go
the intro to SPMS
saw frens along the way so i hop up with them (i saw him too!)

meet them along the way...
but the whole gang of us manage to go to the crowded booths
eventually we separated
i went for engineering talks and tours
some SPMS talk.. i regretted going the SPMS talk cuz its the same as the one i went
should have gone for the sports science and management talk instead

talks and bored tours...
met jl and went for office of admissions
after tt we left for dinner at JP
when i reach home my cousin was there
and he told me how good is studying econs
the prospects for future
the career prospects
the talent
i like econs
but its not a exam subj for me
though its essay
do i need to be very very well read before i can do econs?
i don think my writing skills are that gd
just afraid i don have the confidence to do it
but he told me: so long as u have the willingness and hard work...
nothing will be difficult and u will be able to make it
i would love to try...
should i double in math and econs?
combined degree in math and econs?
its so perfect combi
as it satisfies my NIE requirements of two teaching subjs
and flexibility wise: i wont have to limit myself to only one area of specialisation
i can jump about my choices.. to one more -- banking and finance

i was thinking abt that earlier
the prof said since math and econs is highly competitive
he suggested to put second choice as mathematical sciences...
then results good... second year opt up to math and econs
at that point of time, i would think math and econs would be less preferred to math sciences
got pple so 'silly' to put the more competitive choice as 2nd chocie???

NUS open house
gives me a big headache
i found that since NTU has direct honours...
theres no need for direct honours in NUS
cuz everyone can graduate up to hons...
even though its direct hons for NTU
academic results matter
and in NUS students can finish the degree with HONS within years
why not?? the NUS peeps say
first is whether i should take econs
second is if i should change my mind to choose NUS
cuz NUS offer more programmes than NTU
like those double degree prog combined with math
there's only a combined degree in math and econs

but for NUS there's with com science, econs and engineering
even applied math + com science
but stats is another degree le
where as in NTU .. if specialised in stats
the degree would still be math degree
but in NUS... its a difference in degree in math and stats
so the inflex within the flex
this one can later think...

went zhiying's house to play mahjong..
hope it helps us to lighten some burden on their shoulders
deciding what course to take
and also the raining soo heavily .. makes me so gloomy (pls don use emo to ever describe me and my cousin)
i don feel like going home
so we ended up at her house mahjong-ing...
learnt some basics of the game
thanks to li...

ended up going home late
and also worrying for scholarship application deadline
i've decided to apply for OCBC local scholarship as well
where as for other companies.. prob not

vexed ... donno what to pursue
math is a definite must...
but i don really wanna study solely on math
need some contrast to my uni course

after going to nus open house..
i realised i still have alot alot alot more doubts uncleared
i think only karen can answer them..

why do i always get into trouble for going home late all the time???

tough decisions

life after receiving A level wasnt good afterall!
there is really alot of thinking and deciding of ur career path
and ur intended course to pursue of ur interest
for my intended course to pursue i don really have to ponder alot
cuz i already ponder alot alot before that...
and that i wanna go with my interest to study math
i shall not be stuck at sth i don like for 4 years and to study sth i don like for 4 years...
even though i don need a math degree to teach math at sec/ jc
i would still go for it cuz there are still other job prospects around which also interest me i guess
i am also little bit narrowed into engineering due to the wide job prospects available too
i guess i still go with my interest!

the one i worry for is the scholarship application
cuz with the extreme grades im getting
i don even know what are the chances of getting it
i guess i would just go for a try!
and try and try until i get it=)
it's a pity to get such pitiful results isnt it?
i don like to feel this way either...
can somebody console me?

and scholarship application are a real headache..
partly due to the essay that needs editing
everything done within 10 days after the release of results
are teaching scholarships sufficient???
do i still need to apply for other organisations?
the deadline is running short... if i make some last minute plans
whereas for NTU and NUS scholarships, the deadline is still 2 weeks away ..
so it's quite alright

and the thing is i have to depend everything on myself to do everything
that i have to seek help from peeps esp karen and also teachers to give me advices and reminders of deadlines and so on
my parents arent there to help me decide
i'm left alone to decide my future...
perhaps some admin matter i can still seek their help
donno if i'm applying for financial aid...
that's another area of concern...

i just my course of interest will accept me
just that... i wanna study what i want to study=)

at least i tried my best in all the ways...

that phone call

i was getting restless today
awake at 7plus...
tossing and turning on my bed
smelling the luo mi fan that mum was preparing in the kitchen
waiting and waiting til 8 plus...
she finally came in and saw me awake
9 am came...
according to what i know
the school will know the results by now

i hope the school will call and i am waiting for a mysterious call
i hope lah.. i really hope...
maybe i was too complacent?

i constantly annoyed my mum
like... 怎么办？考不好怎么办？？？？'
guess she was really frustrated with me
i got up and ate my bfast
which was luo mi fan that she made

just as i was abt to give up hope...
then donno who sms me for the class lunch
i was abt to decide that i wanna go
then i sms yt
just as i was abt to reply her
a mysterious phone call came at 1009
i thot it was karen's or asta's home number
it looks like...
i pick up
"hello may i speak to jiaxin"..
"err yes"
"hi this is miss chua calling from pjc. just to inform u that i did very well for ur A levels..."
at this point of time. i was really shocked. my legs are numb...
"then can u report at 12.15 at lt1"
"oh ok"
so she repeated.. i too excited to tell my mum.. i actually said
ok bbye bye" (so rude hor?)
then she asked me to wear appropriate attire cuz i'll be going on stage to receive my results...
then i hang up
i jump all the way to my mum and keep jumping
OOOOOO!!!!!
i did well....

my mum had tears of joy too... she was happy with me
few mins ago she was just as frustrated and worried
then i didnt go for lunch

shall wear my favourite clothes there which is the 2 lovely cats

was on the 985
as usual i had to wait
then i saw a number of pj students
maybe also receive the call
gng to sch together
chatted with some of them
like.. why no peeps from my class

then i reach the school
saw zhiying!!!
and few other guys... like wz, dex, eu and mervin , shaun and wk
quite happy to see eu and he also did well despite his cranky behaviour during j2
talk and talk and was getting restless... couldnt sit properly
keep standing up
then as usual the meeting always late
saw a couple of my students walking out of lt
quite happy to see them
but thinking that i'm giving s27 up..
abit sad la
saw his classmates... but where is he?
slowly we walked into lt1 and miss cheng called me 'miss yeong sit in front'
i was like.. EEHHHH
got briefed abt scholarship stuff
very contented that i am one of them to have the chance to be encouraged to go for a scholarship
but me and zy was questioning each other abt our results
i still question myself..
if fail gp how??? i think wont la... still can go up stage if fail gp meh???

there was a break... so i went out to pass sth to my classmate and i saw him coincidentally.
saw my lovely classmates!!!
and mel passed me my photos...
arggh!!! and i gave asta a hug... so happy!!
walked around and caught up with them
then go in again

waited for quite a long time before proceeding to the hall
the cool hall... isnt cool at all cuz theres alot of pple inside
then slowly teachers brief us abt the uni application stuff (i saw him again!!!, i think he saw me)
after that mrs tan announced the results..
saw those improved students... all As ... was like... ARH!!!!!
kinda embarrassing cuz by right we should do better

then we got 3 As as expected and seen from the formation of the arrangement
except for SC who got 4 As sitting at the back...
well done everybody!!! gave zy a hug too...
went on stage to receive my results from mrs tan
this was the first and last time of my life that i receive results on stage
i think i will nv forget this moment... just a few secs only
then the rest of them receive their results
we took photos on stage ...
got to wait very long..
then that james did star jumps across the stage ... so funny.. haha
immediately after the photo taking
we dashed out to s25 booth and straight away brought our good news to mrs tay
she was shedding tears of joy cuz we did well for chem
all get A and B
that was the unforgettable moment when we are very excited abt our results
holding our results happily and took a photo with her.
and also thanking her for making us do and do and do chem stuff
i turn back again.. trying to catch the last appearance of u .. but where r u?
chatted and chatted... discuss abt our results
and then we proceeded to lt 1 for briefings again
its only for awhile
we went out to join the classmates again
at the canteen at the foyer
sat at the foyer and camp for a very long time
its home again! like wad jl said..
sat for a few hours talking to mrs tay
wanna take a photo but forgot again

was talking to my mum on the phone telling her abt my results
then a group of students looking at me
thinking if i am that relief teacher who taught them
and yes ... i was that teacher... haha gt problem is it???

after that we went to lot one new york new york for our lunch / dinner???
cuz most of us starved for quite a long time
worrying abt results
now finally can enjoy le..

chatted and crapped alot
suddenly feel quite emo
partly becuz i think i could do well in my gp.. but i think i tried my best
cuz normally in school i am that grade...
and mostly becuz its so long time that we can gather tgt as a class to talk cock again
really missed those times we had
jc life has completely ended for us
and we are starting our uni life soon...
i don wanna be separated ...
but no matter what... everybody needs to pursue their dreams
i can now proudly say
this two years are the best times out of my school life!!!

i'll definitely missed the times we had
next class outing???
gonna wish the guys good luck for their pop
best frens forever!
i donno when i will get to see him again...
take care everybody!!!

and thanks to those who wished me good luck and congrats verbally, thru sms !
my parents, my cousin, xinyi (hillgrove), xinyi og 6, zi jian, yihan, xinyu, meiling, zhihui, huiyi, jasmine, tunjiang, dawn, xinhui, asta ,qian yu, karen, yt, sylvia, wilfred, huichen, enrui, caleb low, yongsheng, liling and friends, jiahui, bo lin , weijie, natalie, eileen, jan, peiqi, caleb lim, alvin, my classmates, zhiying, teachers esp mrs tay and ms cheng, mr chua

miss everyone!

2nd part: just wanna say sth regarding my results after i got it..
感触良多, 只想发挥一下

GP
i do not have a forte in english since young, cant even speak properly sometimes. but as i grow up, my communication skills are a little better after i mingled with people. my expressions and the way i write seems misleading at times. and gp is testing abt the way you express and link all ur ideas. so during sec sch i tried very hard not to have any grammatical errors because i know i will go wrong in my sentence structure or expression. and since grammar is sth that is standard. i cant afford to penalise myself. after so much of writing of essays from sec sch til now. my grammar become worse due to being nonchalant. but i buck up after that. its the content that kills. if it is chinese it wouldnt be a problem cuz i can smoke my way thru but its english. i dont have the way to smoke thru unlike chinese which i am better in. even though with the help of times mag. i admit i din have the time to read it cuz i have to complete many tutorials and revisin. i can only glance thru some. knowing the facts is different from applying them. i din know how to master the skills and so.. explains my result. though i tried very hard all the time.
before results release i was telling myself. not to fail ... and in the end, though i din fail. peeps around me scored better than i am. though i am aiming for a C but hoping to pass will be happy enough already. just feel left out sometimes. but i am grateful for this result because i nv get this result before throughout my 2 years in jc. which means to say i've improve! i should be contented cuz im at least better than those straight As but failed right? sorry abt this if i have offended ... but i should be contented. enough of this crap.. i'm just finding excuses to explain what didnt i do better? right?

Econs
this is a subj which will help balance my gp grade. i wasnt good at econs initially but i buck up despite the fact that i started econs later than those who have taken this subj during pae. slowly i climb to the top during prelims. that was in class. and that was pulled up by my essay. i have nv done well in case studies before and i remember how embarrassing it feels to when mdm khoo read out all those who have scored single digit in the usual case study practice. same thing. i didnt know how to apply those skills in case study. im just using knowledge from i've learnt in sec sch SBQ. i know i cant do case. so i mug on essays. and also tried to analyse as much case as possible and refer to how people answer the questions... same thing happens during A lvls. i think i screwed that paper up which ultimately pulled my grade down to a C. i am not inclined in arts subj though econs can be considered for both arts and sci subj. getting a C is quite good enough. i didnt know mdm khoo had such high hopes on me and she said i normally did well in class. no i didnt. i have always screwed up case studies didnt i? i did well in essays and i admit it during my prelims. did i disappoint her? i think i did and it makes me disappoint myself cuz she's a good teacher i guess. and peeps who normally din do well in class did better than me which i came to know abt it at a later date. but i dont think this will stop my passion of wanting to pursue econs since its essay based in uni. who knows one day case study may pop out? it is the result that will ultimately refrain myself from touching econs. but i dislike memorising cuz by understanding concepts, i will have to reproduce this concepts out by memorising. so... just afraid. like what we always say: econs is an interesting subj to study and know more abt, but not exam subj. maybe we really din put in enough effort cuz we always know that how much effort we put in for econs ultimately wont bear any fruit. right? its abt using common sense sometimes.
ok. i m not disappointed. just ok with it=))

math
as expected. though i smoke one question on complex and i was definitely happy abt my smoking skills and even boasted it to my friends! and i didnt know how to do a probability question even. knowing people from top jcs will score full marks for the paper sometimes shake my confidence level. mel asked me this question: if ur A levels got a B, what will u do? i replied: i seriously donno, cuz i nv got a B for math in my whole life. 不知所措 ba. knowing this. i faster buck up my math cuz i haven been touching math for a long time during j2. since i know i can do it in prelims. i focus all my heart and soul on my weaker subjs like phy esp and econs, gp. but who knows what may occur during marking at cambridge. it is better to play safe. luckily mel reminded me abt this somehow, i better be prepared. cuz i will be very very sad if i am stuck with a B for math in my whole life. its my forte. my passion.

chem
with the help of mrs tay and mr tan. i can still feel the excitement when we ran down to stage to go 'hug' mrs tay tgt with the 3 As peeps. i take her word very seriously and did all her hw assigned to us. but i am still weak at some knowledge and concepts. tys helps. she helped greatly at organic chem cuz my foundation from j1 wasnt good at all.. but i slowly climb up to an A finally. she said: A levels result will haunt u for life... just do well as thats it. don let the course choose u but u choose the course. i still remembered how scared we were attending her lesson during jan 08. i like chem too.

phy
i've said i didnt wanna touch phy after O lvls cuz of some common reason i had with my sec sch classmates. but after looking at the uni requirement. phy is quite impt and flexible to go for many courses. esp engineering. and i also i dislike memorising and life sciences.. thats bio.. i go for physics then though i didnt do well in Os... i'm stuck with it. though i prefer understanding and applying equations. it was still ok during j1s, is it cuz the chaps were easier? but when j2 starts, it is a nightmare! it was still ok in common test, i manage to get a B somehow by luck. but teachers said phy is easy to score and ace for. i believed them so i continued working hard. dont drop phy! anyway we are also thinking of dropping subjs by then. by mid year i alr realise i couldnt make it, i didnt understand most concepts. ok. simple ones i do. but when the question and diagrams change... i blur blur already. i was thinking of dropping this subj already but looking at how impt this subj is. given the fact that my econs wasnt that fantastic in the first place. i decided to try harder again. but sometimes due to being ignorant. i didnt consult teachers too (u know why?) so this continues til prelims. my phy got worse. but before that karen alr drop this subj. i am still thinking? what stand am i for? to cont or to drop since im already suffering at this subj. just don wanna waste my effort or let it go down the drain for a long time and i am already everyday doing phy to pull up my grade but that doesnt help for prelims even. forget it i shall continue la. naive me was thinking where did my third A come from? should be econs cuz i was quite satisfied with my essays. but no.. its PHYSICS!!! omg i did it, like how? my prelims was E and now A? so i confirmed myself... it was spa who helped me alot i guess... i haven proven u wrong that i did it ! i used to fear this subj even... and swore that i din wanna touch this subj.. who knows i may meet mr physics again in uni. i am happy with this subj, surprised even...

i may be worried abt my gp grade, but i know its fixed already and it is already very good... i should say. so i am contented with my three of a kind=)

less than 20 hours to go

well every teacher that by passes us will constantly remind us that
its tmr its tmr!!!
i cant think what will happen to me by tmr
life will definitely change after tmr..
like.. what can i do?
i have no more excuses for myself
cuz during this period..
when people ask me what am i doing now
i will always cheerfully reply
waiting for results!!!
but after tmr...
my cheerful reply must change

but i think luckily the atmosphere in staff room today cheers me up
esp the mr ling...
keep trying to bully pple around..
at least the atmosphere is not that tense
hopefully
laughed for around one hour..
then off to prepare lessons for the next whole week
i will be kept busy for my next week
so... even if i didnt do well
i shall not dwell so much on it
cheers

anyway today my lesson was being observed by mr chua
at least my comments were quite positive
same for yt
maybe relief teaching has boosted my confidence
cuz speaking infront of the class makes me nervous at times
at least during presentations and pw in jc
but now..
even if mr chua is around... i am a little nervous..
but at least didnt shiver..
thats great improvement

im going excited abt teaching!!!
but the sad thing is..
im handing over my class back to miss song who is coming back next term
which means that next week will be my last week with them
and due to the need to cover up lessons for mr ling
i will miss one tutorial lesson with them
which means that i have only one more lesson spent with them
and im sad!!!
cuz they are really cute and sensible batch of students
i'll definitely miss them

but nvm.. i am going to enjoy teaching those h1 classes
and our junior class s25!
i'm gng to make sure s25 performs good...

chatted with karen on the phone this evening
and i just happen to know that even if applying straight to nie..
also need to pass GP at one sitting
means.. die die also must pass GP this time round
cuz there's no use to take another time
so... i'm really terrified
cuz i didnt even cross the D grade before during my whole jc life..
at most an E grade...
i wonder how i fare for A levels..

shall not think so much
i'm gonna make myself tired today and do other things which will interest me
tmr gonna see my classmates and everybody!
looking forward !

good luck everybody...

Dooms day is coming

yes we got the news first hand from miss cheng on monday late morning
that the results will be out on this friday 6 march at 230 pm!

so apparently every teacher is telling us : its FRIDAY FRIDAY!
it will not be a normal tgif friday then...
it will change my life perhaps?
it is a dy/dx =0 => turning point of my life then
hahaha

i have expectations of my results..
and do have fat hopes and dreams of my results too
like what i told yt and miss cheng

but ... i cannot have this wilful and wishful thinking of that i always wanna win
i tell myself to stop this mindset
and i will...

results are meant for me not for others
and thus i tell myself i will be satisfied and happy with whatever sai results i get
hopefully a ABB which will allow me to squeeze in NTU SPMS
the fourth subject can be a lousy grade wadever

just that ... i must pass every subject that's all

like what my sec sch english teacher said
aim for the stars, even if u cannot get it.. u will still land on the moon
but if u aim for the moon, u will fall back to earth if u fail...

afterall i gain alot during my 2 years in jc
to be resilient, independent, tolerant, accepting, appreciating and understanding
and also much friendship i have in jc...
this are the more impt values that i will take away from this place...
and leave my hard footprints and beautiful memories behind...
perhaps these are the most wonderful 2 years of school life that i enjoyed in my whole life

i must be happy no matter what
知足常乐是最重要的
that will be my motto
life has to go on right?

i already gave in my best...=)
i will not be disappointed if i didnt receive any calls in the morning...

Cherish

went for tuition yesterday...
currently helping my student to pull up her grades for CA
after that i went westmall to buy some accessories alone...
had some mindless thoughts:

3个月过去了
独自走在街上
不管到哪里
只要看到一个背影长得像你
就单纯的以为会是你
但是我每一次都错了

3个月前
我还在考场上看到你
那是我最后一次看到你的背影
当你走再我面前
我连抬头都不敢
渐渐地，
你长得什么样子我都忘了

无缘吧
每一次我以为会在某个地方遇见你
但是你不曾出现过

想念我念高二时
每天早上7.20分会在巴士上看到你
背着褐色的sling bag 走过那段路来学校
然后走到我的locker，也能看到你陪你的朋友拿东西讲话
之后又到食堂休息
铃声响了
排队了
我又能站在一旁默默地望着你
欣赏你的笑容
看着你的背影
你每次穿着两件衣服
校服时不时会松掉而没tuck in
当每个同学急着上去lt 或者课室
我都时不时多看你一眼

以前还能够走过你的班
但后来越来越少了
但有时候你和朋友回过来和我班的人闲聊
你很少吃东西
所以每次午餐火休息时间很少看到你
或许时间不一样吧

第一次能够让我注意到你
是因为你头发的颜色，又金又红的，很好看
然后心里就想
哇，好好看的发型哦！
但怎么还没被捉呢？
从那个时候吧。。就开始注意到你了

记得o2的时候
我们在学新舞蹈
你们刚好有cca
一直望着我们看
我的心一直蹦蹦跳
不知道你有没有看到我献丑了

然后是学校“马拉松赛”
你是跑在前面的
不知为什么
刚好你跑过的时候
我喊了加油！

我最喜欢星期二了
因为能够在讲堂上看到你
虽然距离不是很靠近
但是还是能感觉到你的存在
上经济课时
有时你没来
有时和几个朋友来
还蛮鸡杂的，哈哈
每逢星期三和四
是我们体育课的时候
能够看到你运动的样子
尤其是在跑步和踢球时
那我，只能在一旁默默的看着你
自己的运动神经却是那么烂
有一天体育课是
同学就和你借了你的作业参考
Kp的我抢了过来看一看
虽然认真，但字体比我还丑！
豁然发现，你也是用左手写字的
这几年来
我和左手写字的人非常有缘哦！
就是对他们非常好奇
对你的作业一直不舍得放下
想多看一眼

其实没什么机会听到你的声音
因为你不常说话
但凭我的记忆
你的声音应该很好听吧！

我常常在来学校的巴士上
盼望着你的巴士经过
这样就能在同一条马路上
听着如果能在一起
也许能够遇见你

有时下雨
我也会在我下车时看到你被雨困住了
你不喜欢带雨伞
所以每次都会这样
好像遮你一把
但又觉得不好意思
你每次都被雨淋湿

七月之间
我经常要跑步让我的测验及格
那你，就会冒然地出现在操场上踢球
走过跑道
远远看着那隐隐约约的14号
也许是一股力量让我一直跑向终点吧

你很喜欢运动踢球
有时我也不知不觉地往操场的方向看

愚蠢的我不知为什么会在你考体能测验时早回家
我是应该留下来看的
这样默默给你打气

后来跟ml交很好的朋友
一起读书，讲话
谈起了这件事

星期二晚上都留在学校读书
有时还能望着你

考试快来临了
你一直没去上课
躲在别地方读书
有时还到gym去健身
有一次无聊的我去开门
竟然碰到你在里面运动
你还盯着我看
我不好意思的快点把门关上了

考试前的假期
你每天都会在图书馆里读书
那我也每天都会回去学校埋头苦读
也许这就是我的原动力吧
继续向前，努力前进
时不时我也会偷偷看着你
加油！！！
你一定能够做到。
这样子呢，就能每天看到你

时间过得很快
转眼就要一起并肩作战了
然后很快的18／11来临
Ml告诉我一个好消息
我迫不及待赶来学校
又在7.20看到你走来
到了学校后知道你会和我班进行一场球赛
我很想去看，但我不能去。。很遗憾

后来好几次都有球赛
又一直被取消
然后听说你到了美国度假
你在地球的另一端
距离非常遥远，对吧？

最近发现了你的消息
很高兴
但是又很想看看你一眼
又不知道怎么办好

“死期”快到了
这一天可能是我最后一天能够看到你的日子了
很期待但有一点都不期待
期待的是等了3个多月又能看到你的样子
一点都不期待的是
这也许是最后一次了
这一天一过
那个期待和等待就消失了
我该期待吗？
我该做一些主动吗？

我真的想说：随缘吧。。。

希望我们还能够相遇
祝你开心愉快。。。