My one and only last time

I had to fast at least 8 hours before my medical checkup today. Thank goodness I still can drink water. I went with my Mum, she wanted to accompany but after the long wait she experienced. She regretted. HAHA. I took around 1 hour to get registered, via a long queue. Not even waiting to see the doctor or something. I met a award holder there too and we chatted along the way, which makes the waiting time not so bored.

Things cannot rush. More haste means less speed. It wastes time instead of wanting to completing it as fast as possible. So silly of me but never mind...

I hope this checkup will be my last time doing it.

Meetings and meetings. I hope I can eat a proper healthy dinner with my Mum these days... I need a good rest.

I will not submit in life. I want to change my own destiny. That's the spirit and drive I see in 月娘 in the show 小娘惹. I admire her for that, I hope I can change my destiny too with the amount of effort.
However I have to agree that it doesn pay off sometimes, depending on luck.

I am happy with what I have now. I don't wish to think so much and wish so much. I want to let things take its own course. I hope anything impactful doesn't fall on me again when I am leading a smooth path. Thank you for everything. I hope for the day you will light up a smile on my face again. I sincerely wish for the day to arrive.

如果，为什么一切都要用如果，才能完美？

Happy Vesak Day!

Head a trip down to the temple for Vesak Day prayers. There were so many people, thankfully Singaporeans know how to queue up for everything, which made the activities easier to manage and sequential. Next it was not the right time to go back to rest so I decided to go down early by bus. We headed to SMU but were like football being kicked here and shoo there. We had no choice but to find a better place to practise our song sign. Guess where we went? Not the usual breakdance area but the Esplanade carpark lift lobby! It's a good place with power plug but we didn't use, nice place with aircon. But I find that it isn't a good place for our practice all the time. The best and safe place I thought was still NTU, no security guards, no outside people... I had managed to win people over. Yay!

We had fun again doing formation and stuff. Oh no! My sore throat is coming again... Once every holiday. I hope I can endure through when the event ends... I don't like sore throats! Keep making me wanting to vomit til I can't sleep well.

Left vs Right Brain

I feel pain on my left side of head. My Mum told me perhaps I use too much on my left brain. So these few days the pain persists, but it's not regular. I kept thinking, hmm, maybe I should read more, listen to more music. But now then I realise that, language uses left brain too. So whatever in school we are studying uses left brain, except for those art and music modules. For this holiday, I think I shall daydream more, do more Art and Craft!

Thank goodness I didn't fall too badly

As what I had expected, it will go down rather than going up. I have been always daydreaming all the while, thinking that I can get what I want, though it's not impossible. It just require more effort. Well, I should be thankful that i didn't fall too badly, at least a little maintain of my results. Perhaps being a little complacent and stubborn sometimes.

Let's do a little reflection of this sem:
Maybe because of Sem 1 results releasing much too close nearing to start of Sem 2. I had this very strong urge of pushing myself too hard during the beginning because I keep thinking I could do much better this time round. But I was wrong, I peaked at the wrong time, which cause me to lose my fighting spirit. Or should I say, I didn't peak at all. Perhaps I failed at overcoming my own obstacle when life suddenly took a turn in the middle of the sem. This led me to be distracted for awhile, I cannot blame anyone except myself. I cannot blame for anything or the reason why it happens at that very crucial time, why not after exams? CCA wise, it has led me to escape away from the stress overwhelming me, though some of the times it takes up time. But thanks to RSPHI, through the turn, it is still smooth sailing. I should learn to balance my time well instead of thinking to put 100% time into studies. Studies is not everything, but I really need it to achieve my aim. Also, after this lesson, I have learnt that, there is still some things in life which I can't control. There are still some things in life which are beyond my limits. I work hard too, but I didn't work very hard enough. Luckily, some things are still by my side. I have fulfilled my wish after one year. This, I believe, will led me to be more rationale and focus on what I want to achieve. Perhaps, more happy with what I have. At least, I am on my way, if I maintain what I have now. I should be able to achieve it!
Hope this holiday will help me recharge and back to my normal happy happy self next year!

Oh ya forget to mention, Thank you ZhiYing for your help! I pass my Defence Science! Wahahaahah...Wonder how is my competitor doing...

Extended

I called the officer just now asking many questions. He agrees to let me extend my deadline because.
I also asked about my teaching subjects which I failed to ask during the interview. He says quite a number of students wanted econs to be second teaching subject but it wasn't offer if I were to be an MAEC student. He says MAEC will not have that kind of rigour in the subject compared to an MAS student. I can teach social studies which is something close to economics. And he asked me if I am not comfortable with the subject physics? I laughed and said, no lah, I'm just asking and trying my luck, will give it a consideration. But why go through all the trouble, in the end can't teach econs. But to me, humanities is not so bad after all, social studies is good! It's about culture and all things. But in a secondary school! Why not? But, I guess I shall forget it of going through so much trouble. Especially when I have to repeat on Year 1 again in black and white of my degree audit. In the end I still cannot teach Econs. I hope I can teach in JC!