I will not submit in life. I want to change my own destiny. That's the spirit and drive I see in 月娘 in the show 小娘惹. I admire her for that, I hope I can change my destiny too with the amount of effort.
However I have to agree that it doesn pay off sometimes, depending on luck.

I am happy with what I have now. I don't wish to think so much and wish so much. I want to let things take its own course. I hope anything impactful doesn't fall on me again when I am leading a smooth path. Thank you for everything. I hope for the day you will light up a smile on my face again. I sincerely wish for the day to arrive.