Letter 3 — Your parents

Dear Parents,

I always say I have two sets of parents. Let me write to my first and priority parents first- my biological parents.

I miss my parents. (Let me write in a third person form as I feel quite weird to directly write to them) Well, since young and til now, I have been very close to my mum. She's like my role model in life. My dad, hmmm, sometimes, living in his own world. That he just wants to live his happy life smoothly, all by himself. Much less to say, having real expectations of me, that he really wanted, of his own decision.

He is worrisome of me, since I am his only daughter. Much to the extent, he don't dare to let me fly the world all by my own. But, I still grab hold of the opportunity this time. He still lets me do whatever I want, but behind, he worries alot. He works very hard to put me through education, to the extent, I don't want to burden him alot. He says he has enough money to fund my education. But I feel, it will be better for me to get a scholarship. I still don't know my decision in this scholarship, in really becoming a teacher. I love to teach. But, can I really take that stress? Nevertheless, partly, we are not financially able , on my father's part. So, I wish I could do whatever to lessen his worry. To avoid his nagging all day long. HAHA! I just hope, he would worry lesser, and enjoy his essence of life.

I miss my mummy. I miss everything of her. Her sweet voice, the nice smell of her orange hair, her cute smile, her plump shoulders, her funny expressions, her cat-alike walk. Okay I sound abit sick. But anyway, I am going to see my parents in less than a week's time. Imagine 4 months out of sight from them, not even a skype video. But thankful to skype these days, I feel more at "home" when I am in Canada. Why I listen to my mum so much is because, she somehow can predict what would be of me in the future. Like my guanyinma, better to listen to her words than regretting. But I really don't know, one day, I may just defy her. I don't wish this day to come. She thought me the morals and values of how to be, a person. Though some things may not be really applied in this 21st century. But the most important thing was, to live up to one's conscience and don't go too hard on your own. In life, some things, we have no choice but to do it. But also, you have the choice to choose whether you want to do it or not. That's the dilemma I learn from her. So at this point, you have to learn how to judge situations. Weigh what you want, and what do good to you. Which is why, I am indecisive at all times. But I guess I always make the correct decisions. Something I will bear in my mind forever.

I think I am narrating about my parents, not even writing a letter to them. Well, I can't say what I would do for them in future. Like what my mum say, don't say for your future so fast, if in any point of time you can't promise what you do. You are just a complete failure than those who didn't promise. So, yup, I have nothing to say for now. But thank you for bringing me up for what I am today. I may not be perfect, smart, responsible, pretty, but I am who I am. That's the most important thing.

Next, my funny couple of parents. I am not sure if you all would read this. But, I am curious how have you guys been when daughter is out in a far far away land. Daddy, stop being a workaholic! Mummy, please cut your hair!
Well, I guess this exchange made me grown up, not alot but I think by a bit. I really look forward to HTHT with you two again. See how much you all think I have changed.

Daddy I am looking the words of angry bird you gave me. I fulfilled everything except one. and that is "find an angmoh bf!" HAHA.

Mummy, thanks alot for hearing me out when I am in my lowest point of time here. I guess being here, change my thoughts about people and really make me understand what I really want. I just want to go do the things I like and I wish to achieve. I am not going to live in other people's shoes anymore. I don't want to care how others think of me.

I will be back in less than a week! And I am truly excited to lead a refresh life!

Loves,
Jia Xin